I love you but why did leave me?

Chapter 5

- a week later -

Yoongi has came back from the hospital. His room was finally finished a few days ago. The results we were given yesterday and that all came back fine so it is sort of a mystery. Any way.
Suga wanted to sleep so I carried him upstairs and placed him outside his new bedroom the the door closed.
"Why?" He asked, his voice going.
I covered his eyes and gestured to J Hope hyung to open the door. I carefully led him in and then said.
"You like?" I uncovered his eyes.
His eyes widened and looked at me.

"So do you?" I asked.
His eyes filled with tears and then hugged me, burying his head in my chest.
"I love it," His voice now hardly audible. He always had such a simple and half empty room. He didn't know what to do with it apart from putting a bed, wardrobe, dresser and a rug.
"I'm glad you like it," I smiled.
He pulled away. "Thank you,"
"I also got you some more things," I went over to his large wardrobe and opened it revealing many clothes and shoes. Along with a mirror on the inside door and a small shelf inside it which had a draw. Full of his makeup. I had also put the boxes in the gap at the bottom. Noticeable but not noticeable that people will question.
This time he sobbed his little heart out and bowed again and again. At this time I was welling up and the others had big smiles,hands over there heart and jhope squealing.
Only jhope.
Really. Only jhope. He so extra!
"Thank you thank you thank you!" He said repeatedly.
"Come here hyungie," I smiled and he hugged me hard, "Why don't you change into some of your new clothes?"
He didn't answer.
"Hyung?"
"Yes... Can you choose?"
I kissed his fluffy matted hair and agreed.
I picked out the red jumper and some black sweatpants. Of course I put the Bunny- unicorn slippers on his feet.
"We'll let you both be," Jin said smiling.
I nodded and watched them all leave.
Suga had his eyes closed. So I carefully took of his clothes... He had bandages around his wrists so I plan to ask him why. Then I put the sweatpants on, and then the jumper. I put the slippers back on his feet and guided him to the mirror and gave his cheekbone a soft kiss.
"You can look," I said.
He slowly opened his eyes and began chuckling.
"what's up with the slippers?"  Suga asked playing with the bottom of his jumper.
"I liked them,"
He nodded and smiled. "I look nice for once,"
"You always look nice,"
"Really!!!"
"Yea... Do you like?"
He nodded and started sobbing all over again, I back hugged him. Suga knuckled his eyes and sniffled, while I kept kissing his cheek again and again until he calmed.
But it wasn't line he was gonna calm. His hands were shaking, he was holding onto me for dear life and was howling.
"Babe?" I asked. Then I realised.
He's having an anxiety attack.
I hugged him harder, his hands pinned down to his side and whispered in his ear.
"I'm s-sorry!" he sobbed.
"Why bub?"
He stopped.
"Bub?" He whispered.
I smiled. "Your small, your adorable... Bub,"
He was still crying. "Why did y-you do all this?"
Icarreid him over to the comfy large bed.
"Cos you deserve something more than just a bland half empty room!"
He nodded. And sighed.
"Can I ask you something?" I said.
"Hm?"
"Why do you have boxes... Containing hair? Why? And would you like me to put the family photos on the wall?"
He let go of me. "I started pulling my hair out since I was nine... I was bullied and when I did stop was pre debut...thays why I also wore beanies... Then the threats started and I once again pulled my hair out,"
My hands went to his hair and I parted it looking for bald spots but there was only one well covered but all his other hair.
I kissed the spot gently and hugged him.
"I don't want the photos to be hung up," he muttered.
"OK.... Hyung we got your tests results a little while ago,"
"Am I OK?"
"Yea it must've been you maybe overworking yourself or something different... But it's all a mystery unless they go into some depth,"
He nodded.
Then we sort of like sat in silence.
Its was one of then awkward ones when someone wants to yell out 'Awkward!'...
I kept glancing at Suga who was staring at his hands, still sniffing.
So to make him happy I went into one of his draws and brandished a Kunamon plush.
The moment Suga saw it his eyes lit up and his gummy smile kept onto his small face.
I came back over and put it in his hands.
"Jungkook your dumped Kunamon is mine now!" He said with a smile and rocking the plush like it was his baby.
"Oh," I said acting sad, "I knew all along you didn't want me,"
I got up my head hung. "I'll be in m-my room..." FAKE stutter.
I did a small sniff and fake sob.
"Baby! I didn't mean it like that!" Suga dragged me back onto the bed.
I looked up at him still acting but I couldn't hold the laughter in any longer.
Yoongi looked confused.
"I was acting!" I laughed.
"And you haven't been in a movie?!"
"No!"
"Oh..."
"Why?"
"Your a great actor!" he hugged me.
I kissed his lips and Jin knocked on the door.
"Lunch is ready," He smiled,
"I'm not hungry.... I would like to sleep!" Suga said.
Jin shook his head but left without another word.
"Don't tell me your on the sixteen eight diet again?" I broke the hug.
"Well since I've been in hospital... I've put on weight so I wanna lose some,"
"No~"
"Why?"
"Have you eaten anything?"
"No," He yawned. "I'll have a snack later I just want to sleep," Then Suga hyung pushed me of the bed and got udner the covers.
"Night I guess," I gave him a soft kiss before leaving.
Suga needs to know he is OK the way he is already but I won't be able to get it through to him...
"Where's Suga?" Rapmon asked as I sat down next to him and Jhope.
"He wants to sleep but he said he's gonna eat something later... Hopefully," I answered eating the samgytang.
"Hopefully?" Jimin asked.
"That's bad," V piped up. "He's gonna to the sixteen eight diet and last time he collapsed on stage... Just like Jimin when he went on the same diet. We need to show that he's OK no matter what he looks like!"
"Wow.... That was smart!" Jinoatted his shoulder.
"I'm not just special! Everyone thinks I'm a special child,"
"We all know your not though," I said with a smile.
"What if I do a weird dance? Maybe it'll make him forget about the diet and be happy," Jhope said.
"Well I'm sure the weird dance will make him smile but it won't make Suga forget about the diet," I said, "When he wants to do something to change he will stick to it no matter what,"
"Yea but it isn't healthy," Namjoon muttered.
"I know... I just.... How can I? Argh its all so hard!" I threw my chopsticks down.
"Calm down... Its isn't your fault.... Suga thinks he is putting on weight but he isn't! It's was his stupid clothes dresser person told him that if he puts on anymore weight he won't be able to fit in anything!" V said with a gruff voice. Taetae got up. "I'm going to that dresser and imma give him a piece of my mind for making Yoongi hyung like this!" Then he stormed out and there was a sudden slam of the front door.
"That's my special child!" Jin cheered.
"Yea but what if he doesn't work for Suga anymore if Taehyung does that?" I questioned.
"No I'll make sure," he paused. "AFTER I've eaten,"
I shook my head.
"I think it'll be better if you went straight away Jinnie!" Namjoon grabbed Jon's bowl of food and took it.
"B-"
"No buts!"
Jin hyung huffed, then got up and ran out of the house with a slam from the door.
Suga came in a few minutes later with an annoyed look.
"Who?" He started, "The hell. Keeps slamming. The door!"
"Jin and V hyung!" I got up,
"They can go die in a hole for disturbing me,"
I put my hands on Suga hyung's shoulders and turned him around, leading him back upstairs and into his new bedroom.
"We're taking about something right now, ok? Just get some more sleep if you can..."I said quietly in his ear as I put him under the covers.
"What are you talking about??"
"Nothing for you, bub," I gently kissed his lips,