I love you but why did leave me?

Chapter 15

"I don't want to go back to Bangtan~" I groaned as my Eomma tried pulling me out of her car, "They hate me," I put my hands onto the car door, trying to keep myself in the passenger seat.
"Loads of people are looking at us Yoongi! Come on I'll go with you!" She said, "Get out~"
"No!"
Eomma tugged onto my arm once more and I fell out, but she caught me, "I hate you sometimes," I pouted.
"I love you to, Yoongi-ah... The train should be here soon,"
"How long?" I asked as we walked (me sorta limping) into the train station, and got two tickets to Seoul.
"Here you go," The ticket man gave us 2,000 Won back and our train tickets,
"Thank you," Eomma bowed and then gave me the ticket, and put the money in her purse, "Only have two minutes to wait, Honey... I'll make sure they know your answer." she patted my shoulder,
"Yea but what will happen to me and Jungkook?" I asked, "He'll still hate me,"
"No he won't,"
"But then will we still be dating? Will he actually still want to date a fat lump like me?"
"Your not a fat lump, I'm heavier than you, ya know! He loves you, darling and always will, I promise he'll still want to get married to you,"
I nodded, not believing her words. I could only believe her when she says she swear on her life.
"I swear on my life," She gently hugged me, "And you better tell them why you have a black eye,"
"And a large cut on my leg,"
"And the bruises,"
"Mmhm," I hugged Eomma back, "I love you, Eomma,"
"I've never heard you say that," She took a step back and put the back of her hand on my forehead. "Your not burning up,"
I chuckled, "I've gotten used to saying it to Kookie,"
"Oh ~" she nudged me and smiled, "ooh ~"
"Eomma!~" I whined, "Your dirty!"
She laughed, "You will do it someday,"
"Pfft no we won't,"

Maybe Yoongi! Dude your definitely a bottom! Maybe you could be top just this once, I thought, a smiling rising on my lips.

"Oh your thinking about it now!" Eomma smiled .
"Oh stop,"
"Why!"
"Your an irrelevent bean,"
"What? Fine I won't take you back to Seoul and then try make the others forgive you," She turned on one foot.
I took her arm and hugged her, "Sorry Eomma~"
"I'm joking jesus," She chuckled,
A horn sounded from the underground tunnel, signalling that the train had arrived.
I walked up to the yellow line and pressed the button to open the doors, "Come on Eomma," I tugged her hand and she followed me onto the train and into some seats near the toilets, "Only three hours," I said resting my head on the train wall.

"Please mind your luggage when leaving and getting on the train. If you see something suspicious tell our staff or phone the police, the next station is, Daejeon"

"Only three hours," Eomma repeated and got out her phone, "Did you give Youngjae my number?"
I sat up and looked at the message, 'Hii Seo-Yoon! It's Youngjae from Got7.. Bangtan are wondering if Suga is with you, they're worried. Just text back 👍🏼Bye~💚💚'

"I haven't given your number to anyone in BTS or Got7. Only Hitman Bang," I said, "Tell him I'm with you on the train,"
Eomma nodded and texted back,' Hi Youngjae~ Suga is wuht me on the train, don't worry okay? 💚💚'

"Wow," I said leaning back on the window,
"What?" she looked up,
"You always give them hearts,"
"Soo?"
"You never give me hearts.."
"You say 'Oh don't give me hearts I get embarrassed' and now your saying you want hearts?"
"Yes.."
"What colour hearts?"
"Orange and yellow,"

She went onto her phone again and a minute later put it away.

'You have one new message from Eomma❤️'

Eomma: here are your hearts 🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡🧡💛🧡💛🧡🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡💛🧡

I smiled and decided to screen shot the hearts.
I rested my head on Eomma' s shoulder and closed my eyes, being soothed by her even breathing and the sound of the tracks on the rails.

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"He's such a little Cutie, your son,"
"Mm I know~ but he can be annoying,"
Laughter, "Well that's children for you though,"
I put my arms around Eomma and whined,
"Yoongi~" Eomma said, "Are you okay?"
I slowly opened my eyes and sat up, "Who are you talking to?"
"Eun-Byeol,"
"Oh," I rubbed my eyes, "Hello,"
"Hi dear," She answered,
I smiled, "How are you?"
"I'm good, what about you?"
"Mm I'm okay," I opened my eyes properly,
"We're nearly there, darling," Eomma said,
"Where? Wait is it a place where I can sleep permanently?"
"No, we're going to Seoul,"
I pouted, "Mm I'm going to sleep,"
Eun-Byeol laughed,

'The next station is. Seoul'

I groaned, "Nope,"
"Yes," Eomma stated.

'We are now arriving in Seoul'

Eomma stood up, "Have a good day, Eun-Byeol,"
"You to,"
"Bye~" I waved as I stood up and followed my Eomma,
"Bye love,"
I followed Eomma of the train and then headed down to the stairs, "I feel sick," I said.
"The toilets are over there," Eomma pointed.
"No, it's okay..." I ran up the stairs and brought out my keys, "My... Car is around there,"
Eomma nodded and followed me down the car park and saw something on my car, "It's a ticket,"
I picked up the ticket. 100,500 Won.
"I forgot to put my ticket there..." I said, "I'll pay it. Its not that much,"
"Okay,"
I jumped in the car and started it up, then out my seat belt on.
It was about 10 minutes to get to my house if there was traffic but it wasn't rush hour so it took about 5 minutes. As I parked onto the drive, a weird feeling rushed over me, over the sickness.
"I'm s-scared," I said taking my keys out of the ignition.
"Don't be, okay?" Eomma hugged me, "We can do this!"
"Mhmm,"
"They'll be happy your home and safe..."
I broke the hug, "Yea... They will be.. No need to be s-scared... R-right!"
"That's the attitude to have," Eomma took her seatbelt off and got out of the car, and I followed after and led her up to the front  door.
I put the key into the lock and then opened the front door, to see Jimin and V making Jungkook laugh, Namjoon, Jhope and Jin were out in the garden pit a barbecue together.
"They're happy without me," I muttered and took a step back, closing the door and then walked back down the drive.
"Come on, Honey!" Eomma basically dragged me back to the front door and opened it, then pulled me in and closed the door loudly and noticeably.
"Suga hyung!" Jungkook shouted and hugged me,
I winced, "Get of me, please,"
Jungkook stepped back, "Why did you go?!"
"I'm sorry,"
"Stop saying sorry!"
"HYUNG!" Jhope shouted and gave me a quick hug.
"You have a black eye!" Namjoon said, "Why?"
"Brother," I stated, "I can tell you all still hate me,"
"We don't,"
I raised my eyebrows.
"I'd still like to know why you rejected me," Jungkook sat me and Eomma down,
"He didn't reject you, darling. He was shocked and didn't how to react. If he rejected you then why did he kiss you?" Eomma said softly.
So the talk took about an hour and Eomma had to leave. Jungkook had proposed to me again.
"Yes," I said, and kissed him.
Everyone cheered, took pictures and videos as well, but for some reason I still couldn't smile.
"Food is ready!" Jin shouted from outside,
"I don't want food," I said quietly, "I'd just like to sleep,"
"Okay, hyung," Jungkook kissed me and then joined the others outside.
I went upstairs and into the bathroom, where I checked my weight. I had lost another 3kg but I'm still fat. The fatness is getting to me now. I can't stand it, I just want to be normal and happy but why can't I?
"Hyung?" Someone knocked on the door after I had finished purging.
I cursed silently and then flushed the toilet and stood up. Black spots appeared as I made my way to the door and when I opened it, Jimin was standing there along with Jin.
"Did you just... Purge?" Jin asked.
I breathed in and tears started rolling down my cheeks, "I'm s-sorry, I'm fat and ugly!"
"Oh, god your not," Jin hugged me, "Your not ugly either. Many ARMY are worried about you because you didn't turn up to our fan meet. Hitman Bang said that it's be suspicious if we had cancelled it,"
I hugged Jin harder, "I'm so so so so s-sorry!"
"Don't be okay?"