MY NERD BOYFRIEND 2

Chapter Seventy Two

Alright, I'm back
Logged out of my account for a while but I'm back now

So where did we stop?

Adele's POV
I look down at my textbook and back at my jotter with a sigh, before dropping my pen on the table

"I can't understand this stupid thing" I groan to myself, dropping my head on the table

Mid - semester tests were coming up in two weeks and I was doing  my best to read up before then so I'm not crowded with work but I've been stuck on one chapter

I could barely focus as my mind kept drifting to Maren. She hadn't spoken to me for three days now after I'd told her and I felt so guilty.

Of course I was expecting her to be angry but I wasn't prepared for it. She had walked out and slammed the door when I'd told her and since then, she hadn't spoken to me and I barely even saw her

I wasn't sure if Makena knew but if she did, she didn't show it because she still hung out with me and spoke to me the same way she always did and I was at least thankful for that.

If she wasn't talking to me, I'd feel more terrible than I did already. I just wish I'd kept my mouth shut but that would mean me keeping up the lie and I didn't want to anymore

The truth didn't earn me anything but her anger but I still stood by my decision to tell her the truth. It wasn't right to leave her in the dark like that when it was clear she liked Jordan so much

It was okay if Jordan liked her back and they decided to get together, alright, it wouldn't be okay, it'd crush me but I would be willing to live with it as long as she just stopped being angry with me

It wasn't like I had any hope with Jordan and she was a nice person so she had more chances of being with him. I was just an idiot and it would be my punishment for all the stupid decisions I had taken because I was solely responsible for whatever happened between Jordan and I and I was responsible for putting us in this situation

I regretted everything so much but it's not like I can turn back the hand of time. All I wanted at the moment was just to fix things with Maren and let her know how sorry I am for lying to her and keeping things from her like that.

I let out a sigh, raising my head from the table and looking down at my book again.

"Must be tough" I hear and look up, my eyes widening as I see Jordan

"Hi" he says when I say nothing and just stare at him

"H..hi Jordan" I say

"Can I sit?" He asks referring to the empty chair in front of me and I look at it and back at him

"Sure" I say and he nods with a smile before sitting down and setting his back down on the floor

"What are you doing here?" I ask

"The same as you, I came to study" he says and I face palm myself mentally

Of course he came to study. This is a library, what else would he come to do? Shop?

"Right, sorry" I say

"Its fine. How are you?" He asks and I raise a brow "I heard from Devon...about you and Michael" he says

"Oh" I say only

"Sorry, he told me" he says

"No, its fine and I'm okay" I say and he nods

"I'm sorry about it" he says and I nod

"Its okay. It was bound to happen anyways, I didn't give him as much love as he gave to me" I say looking down at my book with a sad smile

I wasn't sad that we broke up but I was sad about the fact that he was broken. I didn't deserve him, he was too good for me. He deserved someone who would love him and put in as much as he did and that person was obviously not me

Honestly, I didn't deserve to be loved by anyone cause all I do is slam their love in their face and hurt them. I would always agree with Jordan, he was right when he said I was selfish, extremely selfish.

It seemed like I was the one always sabotaging my own happiness by making stupid decisions that in the end not only hurts me but the ones around me.

I look up from my book realizing I zoned out for a bit and let out a small laugh "sorry" I say and he shakes his head

We keep quiet and I just look down at my book, wondering what next. It was surprising that the silence wasn't awkward

"They are wrong" I hear and look up at him

"Hmm?"

"Your answers, they are wrong" he says looking at my jotter and back at me

"Oh" I let out shutting the jotter in embarrassment "I don't really understand what I'm reading, I was just giving the exercises a try" I say and he nods

"Do...do you want to study together then?" He asks and I blink

"Sorry?"

"Since you don't understand, I can explain it to you" he  says "if you want me to, that is" he says again

"Oh, um...if its not too much of a bother" I say

"Its not" he says and I nod with a smile

"Thanks"

"Tomorrow then? In the evening, we'll meet here" he says

"Alright" I say not able to slap the smile on my face away

"I'll call you" he says with a smile, standing up and I nod

"I'll pick your call" I say and he chuckles as I face palm myself

"I meant okay" I say quietly, drowning in my embarrassment

"Alright, bye" he says picking up his bag and I nod

"Bye" I say bringing my hand up in a single wave and I watch him walk away

"Life's playing with me" I mutter to myself with a smile on my face as I look down at my textbook

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