Daily dose of Inspiration

#1 | Letter to my unborn Son

To honor all the single Moms out there. I dedicated this piece to all of you. May this give you a bit of inspiration to fight and strive more against all odds. 💜

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There will be so many times you feel like you've failed, but in the eyes, heart and mind of your child, you are super Mom.

- Stephanie Precourt

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My dearest little Angel,

Baby, three more months and I'm about to give birth to you. I am eagerly waiting to see your little face, to caress you gently while showering you with tender kisses.

I am praying to our Almighty that He'll let my delivery become safe and that you'll come out super healthy. Few more months and you'll have a glimpse of our beautiful world created by Him for us.

I'll show you that it's worth living for. Together, we will face all hindrances that may come our way.

Though, it's sad to say this but your father won't be with us and I don't know where he is now. I felt pity to myself but most of all to you knowing that you'll grow up without his presence.

Let me tell you this baby, your father was a good looking man. He has a set of beautiful brown eyes. He's tall, sweet and ofcourse a gentleman. I can't stop smiling while thinking about him.

He was my first love.

He was from Manila and we met here in Cebu when he came for a vacation. His cousin was my childhood friend and I instantly had a crush on your father the moment I first saw him.

Funny huh?

To my surprise, he went to our house one day just to see me. I felt like the universe stopped for a while and I can't explain what I was feeling. I was overwhelmed with so much joy.

Until one day, gathering all his courage, he confessed what he felt towards me...that he loves me.

Mommy was in college at that time, second year to be exact. One of your grandpa's conditions was that no boyfriend is allowed until I finished my course.

No one in our village dared to court me because they're scared of him. So I was torn between obeying your grandpa and being with your Dad.

I love your Daddy so much so I decided to break his rule. It took a lot of courage for me to do it. But God knows, guilt was haunting me everyday.

We were meeting somewhere else secretly. I know that it's wrong to hide our relationship but I am so scared that he'll do something to make us apart. Yes, Mommy was once a coward.

One day, I and your Daddy discovered that I am having a baby inside my womb...and that's you son.

I am so happy and scared at the same time. Happy because we'll have you and scared of what your grandpa might possibly do.

I was desperate at that moment so I told your grandma about my condition. She was mad but tried to understand me. And I am so thankful for that.

But my pregnancy won't be a secret forever. One morning, he saw me puke because I don't like the smell of the dried fish your grandma was frying.

He almost killed me, baby. He was furious so we went to your Daddy's cousin's house to settle my condition. Only to know that he was already gone. He went back to Manila without even telling me personally.

No phone calls or even a simple text message.

I felt like an idiot. He left me alone. He's not a man I thought. He's afraid of commitment. It felt like your grandpa slapped me a thousand times when he said "He ruined your life! If you just listen to me, this won't happen!"

But it's too late, baby. I don't have the power to bring back the time. I admit, it was all my fault.

I stopped going to college because my baby bump is getting bigger. Every time I came out of the house, people would mock me.

They don't say anything but I can read it through their eyes. And it says "you're a slut! A freaking whore!" An unmarried woman who got pregnant? I simply don't care baby. Mommy never regretted what happened.

Until now, I'm still hoping that one day your grandpa will be able to forgive me. We're living on one roof but he treated me like a stranger. He acts like I do not exist.

When you come out, smile at him okay? Maybe, just maybe...your smile would melt his anger towards me.

Your Daddy? Well, I don't have any news about him either. I am not hoping anymore that he'll be back for us and claim you as his son. But I know deep inside my heart, after all what he did, I still love him.

Don't worry baby, I can be your Mom and Dad at the same time. We will be happy together and I will never let others hurt you. It may be tough for us but Mommy will work hard to provide you a better living. I promise.

And oh by the way baby! Mommy will go back to college next school year after I gave birth to you. Wish Mommy luck!

I love you sooooo much!

Love,
Mommy

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