.............. as i woke up agitated and rushed to the window since the sound of the crash was coming that way, and it was her dangling on the edge of the terrace " what the fuck is wrong with you girl?" i angrily asked her, " nothing, i was trying to get down to sleep but i almost fell down on my ass, now be a gentleman and come help me" it was annoying "how much of gentleman can i be in a girls body " i reached out and gave her a hand so she can get into the house safe.
"any news with the jamaican dude?" i thrilled to know, i hate this whole situation. i remember when i was a kid i wondered many times how will it be if i'll be in someone else's body and now that i'm a grown boy i'm no fan of it. it may be fun to see the world from someone else's eyes, but i'm not interested.
" yeah, i have some good and bad news."
"i'm not surprised, so start with the good one."
she said: "the dude from jamaica has sent us a couple of cigaretts, and the bad one is" and she stopped for a moment, " and the bad one is that we have to drive like 700km to get the cigarettes"
"ohh fuck, great" that was upseting, the silent kind of anger is what i felt. " we can not fucking go this week" i have important exams that u must study for, can't we pay the dude to bring it?"
"i suggested that but he said he can not, but i'll text him and see if he can wait a week"
i crossed my fingers and saw her type in her cell, as she finished and looked up as i met her gaze? and it felt like the longest 1 minute of my whole life, i kept thinking of my studies and that i really needed to pass and how much i hated this situation and i was confused and felt worried my thoughts were mixed and it felt weird.
"okay he said he could wait but not a week so it is monday, and when are your exams?"
"i have the first one in wednesday and another one by friday and the final one on monday."
"shit he said that sunday will be his last day, okay so what time is your friday exam exactly?"
"at 1pm"
"okay, okay" she seemed out of thoughts while looking at the ground and after a while she replied excitedly, " okay, so if we leave on friday right after your exam, at like 4 or something, we can be there by 5am and let's say we meet him at 8 or 9 max, we can be back home by friday night so this way u can still do your exam as yourself, huh? what you think?"
"i don't know but maybe, there is still so much to cover, don't forget that we still need a car and i don't think our parents will be happy about it, well my mom won't and judging by the 5 minutes i met your mom i don't think she will accept."
"okay you know what let's go sleep and we will figure this out tomorrow, and try to be positive"
"did you just told me to be positive?god, i hate people who say this kind of nonsense" it was stupid, one of the supidest sentence used by human, i can not just be positive when i know something is not right nothing is fucking right at this moment.i'm a guy trapped in a girls body and i have to be social and talk to many people, i don't think it can get worse. i couldn't afford to argue with her? she replied" whatever go to sleep, sweet dreams." as i went to bed and kept looking at the roof of my room thinking and i realised that, maybe overall this could be a good thing, maybe all this changed happened so i can change, i've been the same person for so long and i've always felt good about who i am , maybe a lot of people didn't like how silent and that i never fit in their boxes, but i don't want to be in a box i just want to be in whatever i shall be, but who knows i just hoped it would be a good one at the end
