The Alphas Son

Chapter 28

For the past couple of days, we've been in the hospital. Jonah was in intensive care, they stitched him up, but he still needed to be watched. I hated that I was the one who hurt him. I had to get a handle on my magic. I couldn't be responsible for someone getting hurt again.

 I was asleep in his room. No matter what the nurses told me, I wasn't leaving his side. I heard a knock, and got up off the chair I was sleeping in. It was the doctor, she smiled at me, she was here to check on Jonah. When she was done doing whatever it is doctors do when they check up on a patient, she came to talk to me.

"The charts show that his body is healing pretty quickly, his vitals are finally stabilizing. He should wake up soon." She said I thanked her and she left. I walked over to his little bed, I held back the tears as I saw him, he looked so innocent and like he was hurting. All I wanted was to take his pain away and give it to myself. I just hoped when he woke up, he would still trust me. Elias came in a little while after the doctor.

"How are you doing?" He asked

"As well as expected for someone who just nearly killed her own child," I said to him. He came and wrapped his arms around my waist from behind. I laid my head back on his shoulder. "I just hope he doesn't hate me." 

"He won't hate you. Sure he will feel a little scared for a while, but he won't hate you. You're his mother." He said trying to reassure me.

" I just hope your right," I said. 

"I found a witch willing to help you control your magic. I know it scares you right now, but with her help, you can get the hang of it."  He said.

"I hope so because I don't want to ever use magic again if it means hurting other innocent people," I said

"Okay, I'll tell her you are ready to start, but just know this process isn't going to be easy. Karima isn't your average witch, she  will push you over your breaking point in order to get you to the place you need to be." He explained to me.

"Okay, whatever it takes. Wait, I have a question. If I'm a half-witch, doesn't that also make Jonah a half-witch also?" I asked him he chuckled. "What?" I said turning to him.

"I guess in a way it does, but we won't know for sure until he manifests his abilities. A witch's powers are kinda unpredictable though you never know when they are going to manifest themselves. For you it took years, for him it could take effect now or later in his life. We don't really know for sure, and maybe he is just a wolf with no powers." He said. I raised my eyebrows at him. 

"How do you know all of that?" I asked him.

"I do my research." He shrugged.

" I just hope he doesn't manifest any of those so-called powers now. The last thing anyone of us needs is a two-year-old who can do magic." I said. Elias smiled and planted a kiss on my forehead. We heard a small cough behind us, and I quickly turned around. Jonah was slowly opening his eyes. I looked up at Elias.

"I'll go get the doctor," he said I nodded. With his eyes now fully open, Jonah looked at me. I smiled at him and reached for him. Out of nowhere, he started to cry and move away from me. 

"Baby, what's wrong? Does it hurt somewhere?" I asked him. He just kept crying. Elias and the doctor ran in. I tried to pick him up, but he wouldn't let me. I put him back down. Elias went up to him, and he started to calm down. He wouldn't even look at me. He was surely scared of me. Tears were now well in my eyes, and I couldn't stop them from falling, I walked out of the room not wanting to upset him more. Elias right behind me.

"Hey, come back. Don't you want to know if he's okay?" Elias asked

"I can't go back in there, he hates me. I saw it in his eyes the moment he looked at me. " I said to him.

"He's just confused right  now." He said

"My son is scared of me, how do I get over that? How do I make him trust me enough for me to hold him? All I want is to hold him and make sure he is alright, but I can't do that." I said he pulled me to his chest. I cried harder than ever. It pained me to know my own son didn't trust me. 

After I calmed down, I sat outside the room and Elias went in. I didn't dare go back in there. I didn't want to make Jonah cry again. He was everything to me, and the way he looked at me right now killed me inside. The doctor walked out later and spoke with me.

"He is alright, and everything is fine. We will do some additional tests, but after you are free to take him home." She said, I thanked her. I watched from outside as Elias held him, and talked with him. I just wished I could do the same. Elias saw me and gave me a sad smile. I turned away and walked outside to get some fresh air. After sitting outside for some time, I walked back to the room. Elias walked out as soon as I got there.

"You okay." He asked I just nodded. He took my hand and started to walk toward the door.

"No Eli, I can't. I don't want to upset him." I said, he pulled me to the door anyway. I saw Jonah laying in his bed. I tried to pull away from him, but I couldn't. 

"Hey buddy, someone is here to see you." He said Jonah turned around. I turned away not wanting to see his reaction. "Remember what we talked about buddy?" He asked him. I heard Jonah's little voice say yes. I heard Elias pick him up, but I still couldn't bring myself to face him. He walked around and stopped in front of me. Jonah had his face in the nook of Elias' neck. "Take him Liv," he said.

"I can't Eli. I can't." I said

"You can, here." He said he handed me, Jonah. Slowly I wrapped my hands around his little body and pulled him close to me, and for the hundredth time this day I cried. 

"I'm so sorry baby, I didn't mean to hurt you. Mommy didn't mean it." I said to him. He also cried in my arms. I mouthed a silent thank you to Elias. 

I held Jonah until he fell asleep, then placed him back on the bed. I walked over to Elias and stood in front of him. He was sleeping so peacefully. I grabbed the small blanket I had and covered him. I planted a small kiss on his forehead and sat in the chair next to him. Having Elias here was nice. It made me feel like maybe Jonah could get somewhat of a normal family. Elias was like a father to him, there when I couldn't be. It made me love him even more, he was a great stand-in father for Jonah. He made me sane and never asked for anything, it made me love him even more.