Poems I write

Im really full of sadness

I'm really full of sadness
I'm finding it hard to stay intact
My smile, my happiness
It's all an act

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to tell you how and why

Your already upset
This would only add to your stress
Plus you have a dark mindset
Anyways my feeling are hard to express

I feel the same you do
Empty and heartless
And even if I told you
You wouldn't care less

I'm really full of sadness
I'm finding it hard to stay intact
My smile, my happiness
It's all an act

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to tell you how and why

Plus our other friend
feels betrayed and replaced
I want this feeling to end
I feel like a huge pile of waste

But I don't want to hurt you
So I'm keeping this secret inside
At least you have no clue
But lying that I'm ok has my stomach tied

I'm really full of sadness
I'm finding it hard to stay intact
My smile, my happiness
It's all an act

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to tell you how and why

I want to tell you how and why

Your already upset
This would only add to your stress
Plus you have a dark mindset
Anyways my feeling are hard to express

- msz1ggy (iris)

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These are more lyrics than poetry, I hate to kill the mood for the first day of pride month, but I just really want to get this out of my system, I created this about a week or two ago.

I was just lost and didn't know how to express my feelings without making people feel bad about themselves, I want them to be supportive, yes, but I don't want them to feel bad for me, that I'm weak. I'm not trying to grab attention, I'm not trying to say: omg you guys were fooled the whole time, I'm so good at hiding stuff, I want to kill myself or I'm so pathetic.

NO

I am a strong human being, who can get through things as tuff as sadness and hollowness, I don't want pity or sympathy, I just want to get some weight off my shoulders.

Yes I will feel vast and hollow at times but that's ok, I will always make it through, I just need some time.

So for the people who support me, sorry I haven't told you earlier.

It took me a lot of courage and thought to post this, I hope you guys understand.

I love you guys ❤️

-msz1ggy