Poems I write

Positive

Positive
What is it?
Why do we need to stay, "positive"?
But there's something I want to admit

I try to
I try with all my heart
But it's not working
And it's tearing me apart

I try for my friends
I try for my family
I try for everyone
Except myself

All my friends cheer me
Yet they become depressed
Because of me
They don't admit it but it is

I be positive because
That's how they don't feel worse
When I open up my problems
It's like spreading a curse

They don't stay positive
They become mentally sad
They become negative
And I just feel bad

I try staying positive for them
So then helping them works better
If I have a sad ton to them
It makes things worser

If I type with smiley faces
They think I'm ok
But why can't they see
It's just text and its not the real me

That's why I keep my problems to myself
They will take it the wrong way
Sharing my problems is just a waste
I might another day

If I say the right things
Do the right things
Act like some happy go lucky person
They think I'm ok

And sometimes... I trick myself that I'm ok too

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Author's notes:

I'm okay if your concerned, not sure why, but making poetry and writing about my thoughts and things make me feel refreshed or something. So don't worry! I just like making poems about this stuff, I'm not looking for attention like: "your not bad" or something like that, it's just hard to explain but I like creating poems like this :3

I hope you can kinda understand? Anyways, that's all I have to say now, don't be alarmed 😂
I'm alright! Promise.

Happy reading! - msz1ggy