It's been a month, Gee hasn't left his bed and we haven't left the house since that day. I can't walk past his room without crying neither can Frank or Ray. The bathroom door stays locked and his stuff right where he left it. I haven't eaten since we got the call. Why did he do it? Why? Gerard hasn't showered since last week and honestly I don't blame him, neither have I. 2 people, I lost 2 people in just a couple of months. My best friend and my boyfriend of 6 years. I was the one that found him cutting himself 4 years ago, I was the one that told him it would be okay to come to me if he was hurting, I was also the one to find his body.