Hs-2023

Chapter 1

I sat alone in my house, toys, beer bottles, pill bottles and more litter the bottom half of my house. Dishes were piled up, laundry was piled up. I was to tired to clean it, between my final year of high school, and my first year of online college, and my online job, on top of raising 3 kids, I didn't have the time to clean it. It was Friday afternoon and the children were at their grandparents, (the Michael's) I just got home from school, high school that was, and in my hand was my report card. I didn't have to look at it, it was mostly C's and D's and 2 F's, I grabbed a beer out of the fridge, lit up a smoke and went off to find my only friend... My razor. I dragged it across my leg sharply a few times until I was a crying mess. The words "you don't hurt yourself" from years ago had no effect on me anymore... I had no one to answer to. When the kids were here, I did my best to not drink or do drugs and they were rarely downstairs, the TV did most of the parenting. I ate just enough to not pass out, I did just enough not to lose my kids. I finished off my first cigarette and reached for another when someone came knocking at the door. I stood with someone standing there, their back towards the door, when they turned around, my mouth went wide and my beer fell to the floor. Catching my breath. "Lex..." I said and wrapped my arms around him, he hesitated for just a second before hugging me back. When we let go I walked back over to the couch and he walked in. He closed the door and dropped his duffle by it.

I was so excited to finally be visiting home after so long, it's been over a year. Ami had quit writing me a few months back and I didn't know why. She was my first stop, the only stop that really mattered most, I was here to make good on my promise. I was coming back for her. I pulled up in front of her house and paid the taxi as I grabbed my duffle bag. I headed up the the door and knocked, I turned to look around at my beautiful home state, when the door flew open I turned and was meant with what was left of Ami. Her eyes lit up when she saw me. "Lex" I breathed out dropping a beer bottle in her shock. She hugged me wrapping her arms around my neck, I hesitated for just a moment and hugged her back, when she let go, she stepped back to let me in before going over to sit on the couch. I couldn't believe my eyes at what I was seeing. I kicked the door closed with my foot and dropped my duffle bag next to it. I hear a lighter which snaps me out of my thoughts. Ami lights a cigarette and leans back against the couch. I shake my head in disbelief, I walked around her house, dishes were stacked high, garbage was boiling over, laundry was piled high and scattered everywhere, along with empty beer bottles and pill bottles. As I got further into her room that was on the main floor, I step on something and it breaks. I stopped to look at it to make sure it wasn't important. It was a freaking needle, when I walked in her room. I found pot residue and a crack pipe. Pill dust all over her dresser. I closed my eyes in decust. I was disgusted with her, I was disgusted by myself, and I was disgusted with Matt. I walk fast out of her room, and towards the door, I picked up my bag and was gonna leave, I see her look up over at me through the window, hoping I wouldn't go. I reached for the door handle and opened the door.  'No I told her I would never walk away from her, that I wouldn't let her give up on herself, that I would never give up on her." I told myself. I slammed the door shut and threw down my bag and started undressing. "What are you doing?" She asked "this" I said walking over to her in just my boxers. I picked her up fast bridal style and carried her to her room and into her bathroom, and into the shower. I turned the water on cold. She screamed and tried to fight me, "stop fighting" I said I fixed the temperature and stood her up facing away from me. She placed her hands on the wall, along with her head to catch her breathing. "What am I going to do with you?" I asked kissing her back. "Hold me, punish me, love me" she breathed out. "Your wish is my command" I said
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