high school is hard, it's even harder when your raising 3 kids, your failing out, and you've just given up on yourself.
I'm still working on a cover. And looking for just the right pic for lex so for now you get to see Dean Winchester cute face.
Warning, warning. Suicide thoughts and actions, and self harm are present in this chapter. Please don't read if you think you would be triggered by it
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I didn't need to look at her site as I already did. She was covering her face and shaking. I turned the chair towards her, and reached over to her gently grabbing her shirt to pull her close to me. "Anything else, I should know?" I asked her looking up at her covered face. She nodded. "Tell me babygirl" I said rubbing her back. I had put the belt down on the table beside her laptop. Ami shook her head, she tried to form words but she had fallen into little/Sub space. I sighed and pulled her into me. "It's okay baby... Daddy is here, I'm not leaving, I love you babygirl, even when your a bad girl" I said she wrapped her arms around me and straddled my lap. I held her close and rocked her. After awhile I could hear her snoring, I chuckled a little and carried her off to bed. I then climbed in next to her.
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I woke up in the middle of the night, Lex was right next to me. "He knew everything.... He knew all the lies I told him, he knew all my deep dark secrets, and he still stay... I wanted him to stay, but I also wanted him to go... He deserved better then me, he deserved more then I could give him, he to would be better off without me. With those thoughts in mind I got out of bed and went into the kitchen, I wrote a suicide note and before grabbing a knife. I made a few cuts to my wrists, just as I brought it up to my neck and was about to kill myself, the knife was snatched from me. "No! Let me die, I want to die" I cried out as my arms were pinned behind me, I was then lead quietly to the floor as I tried to struggle against him. I knew I was Lex who was holding me as it was only us here.
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I woke with an uneasy feeling, Ami wasn't next to me. I jolted out of bed and looked into the bathroom, she wasn't there. I then opened the door and heard crying coming from the kitchen, I walked quietly but quickly. I saw her cutting herself and walked faster, catching her in time before she sliced her neck. I grabbed her arm the held the knife and was quick to get it. I then held her arms behind her as she struggled. "No! Let me die, I want to die" she cried and screamed her body wanted to escape to the floor, I followed it's lead. I held her firm, her arms behind her back and carefully pinned her head to the floor, until she was laying down all the way on her belly. My knee rested softly on her back. I was in know why hurting her. "Please..." She begged "you'll be better off without me" she cried softly. tears fell down my face. After a little more fighting she laid still, breathing heavily for a little while, and then fell asleep. I sighed a breath of relief. I stood and carefully picked her up and carried her back to bed. I put a diaper on her and then cuffed her to the bed, carefully so I didn't wake her. I then made a bed on the floor and laid down and watched her sleep until, I was finally able to get back to sleep. I had my work cut out, but I would do whatever it takes to make sure Ami was happy and healthy and alive of course for many years to come. ***************** 636 words
