ᴇᴜɴᴏɪᴀ • ᴇ.ᴅ + ɢ.ᴅ

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     "ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇɴᴛ sᴛʀᴀɴɢᴇʀs ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ"
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a week later

the death of my mom drained me.

i could only feel a need to be with her again. to hear her voice and to laugh with her once again. other than that, constant emptiness.

not a single tear, not a single fucking tear in 2 months.

2 whole months and i couldn't shed a tear. i know how these things work, the grief causes a state of shock that eventually cracks and everything comes tumbling down.

i'm just waiting for that now and then i can figure out what the hell im supposed to do.

i sat in the sad hospital bed, staring at the wall. a hospital gown hung loosely around my frail body and my hair was tied in a loose knot on my head.

all i wanted more than anything was to leave. i hated it here.

there was nothing but coldness. the sound of footsteps entering the room brought my attention to the presence of another.

"your results have come back, madeline." the doctor concluded, looking at me, his expression serious and eyes hard. i nodded, indicating for him to carry on, looking down at my hands.

"your blood sugar levels are ridiculously low and your weight has continued to decrease. have you been eating regular meals?"

"i haven't been feeling well lately and with the trauma of the whole memory loss thing and of course the losses of my family, i guess i ate a little less." i said calmly, my eyes holding his as he nodded his head, expecting just as much.

"i see, it's understandable but i suggest resting here for a couple of days before leaving, you were passed out when the ambulance was called and it's not safe for you to be walking around." he suggested, taking a few notes while assessing my heart rate with the machine.

"honestly i'm okay, i'm happy to go home and i'd rather rest there." i replied, watching his eyebrows furrow as he considered my point. even if he said no, i could still try persuade him. dead mom perks, dead sister who you can't remember perks, your whole life which you forgot about perks, you see.

my insensitivity gets the best of me at times.

"as long as you take it easy, madeline. i will sign the release papers and you can leave whenever you're ready." he nodded once before leaving the room.

a small smile appeared on my lips before i shook my head and stood up carefully, squeezing my eyes shut to pass the dizziness and gripping onto the side of the bed.

i went into the bathroom and changed out of my limp hospital gown and replace it with my usual, leggings and an oversized hoodie that hung loosely and reached the middle of my thighs.

i refused to look at myself in the mirror, though.

i tugged on my bun, letting my long hair, slightly wavy, fall over my shoulders and trail down my back.

it was light brown in color and made my hazel eyes seem more golden and my tan skin seem darker.

i was just an ordinary looking girl. nothing special. not that i minded, you could blend in more this way and go unnoticed by people you didn't want to notice you.

i pulled my fingers through my hair to get rid of any obvious knots before leaving the bathroom, grabbing my bag and heading out the door.

i opened it and stepped out, turning left before hitting a brick wall. my head hit someone's chest and i stepped back, my fingers coming up to touch it.