So the best way to do this is probably to start from day one. Nah just like short things that may have alluded to my future when I was a young child.
Background:
I come from a super conservative family who had absolutely no influence on me being trans and they actually pushed me away from it but we'll talk about my coming out story later.
Disclaimer:
If you experienced any of these things it doesn't automatically mean you're trans these were just things that could've possibly alluded to it for me personally.
Four years old:
There is a video of me on the family video camera saying, "Mom look, look mom I'm a boy mom." I was playing war with my friend (male). This was something we did quite often and it was a shocker. After I say this you hear my mom say, "Okay, (deadname) it's time to go inside" frantically even though it is light outside and curfew was dusk.
Childhood:
Tomboy to an extreme I packed before I knew what trans was before I knew what packing was. I literally had juggling balls I'd shove in my shorts and pretend was my dick (don't judge I was like seven)
Childhood 2:
I always played the boy characters in games and claimed they just "looked cooler" but it was because I wanted to look like them. I always felt that disconnect between my body and my brain it was just more subtle back then.
Childhood 3:
My mom made me get girl friends because I only hung out with guys and played basketball and airsoft. (The girls are actually some of my best friends to this day I mean like practically my sisters but still the point is driven I only hung out with guys on my terms).
Childhood 4:
People always thought I was a little boy and I would always feel pride in being called a boy before I knew what trans was like I found out in 7th grade what it was this was wayyyyy before that. Even with long hair they called me a little boy seriously because I looked like a boy I tried to.
Childhood 5:
I was pissed when I wasn't allowed to take off my shirt to swim and after my mom left I always did anyway until I started developing breast tissue there and I couldn't because i understood the implication. (That day sucked and I stopped swimming)
Childhood 6:
I was really into skateboards and bmx like I knew all the bike tricks and I got a boy bike because I told my mom it was better for tricks on (for the record it was it had pegs and the girl bikes didn't)
Childhood 7:
I just really hated anything girl after I developed a mind to dress myself and do my own thing I always went masc. I didn't even mean to.
So these are just a few minor things and like these don't mean you're trans you can just be a masculine girl.
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