Clara Longbottom

I am supposed to be happy

I am so happy, I have Noah back. we can go back to Hogwarts. But something is missing. I miss Lew.... NO I cant, this whole journey was to find Noah but now I want him. How can I love two people. I loved Noah with all my heart however I am not that girl anymore. I am a hybrid now, an independent women and feel like I don't need him. 

I woke and saw Noah in my room packing my things, he looked angry. Not sad but angry. "are you okay" I said softly but also awkwardly. "yeah im great, lets go to school, meet me in the lobby." he replied angrily, meaningful but her was annoyed. Then remus came in. his eyes were so warm and kind. the father I never had. the daughter he never had. "Hey sweetheart, how are you coping." "why is Noah mad " I asked without a second blink. I wanted to know. "he and Lewis had an argument,  they used to be like best friends, however over that girl. I know you care for both of them. don't be mad at lewis, he didn't mean to get lavender killed but he has some kind of sensation that he doesn't care who he hurts if your in the slightest bit of danger. Noah went to him to thank him for looking after you but then they got in an argument. Lewis is still here though." Instantly I got up in my pj's and ran to the guest room knowing lewis would be in there. he was sat on his bed, he looked at me and stood up and really quickly ran towards me. we both hugged each other and we both tried to say something but got interrupted by each other. 

"No you", "No you" we both exclaimed. "I am so sorry, Clara, I mean im not sorry I saved you but im sorry if I caused you any pain. And I'm sorry / not sorry for the argument with Noah, he is so fucking annoying but yeah."

"Clara let's go" Noah shouted from downstairs, still annoyed but not at me. I gave Lewis a nod before walking out near the door. I felt this pull, it stung my heart, made my brain feel it was attached to a magnet. I turned around and Lewis looked like he had the same expression. I tried to walk another step away and it hurt even more. Lewis looked like he was about to say something but then he stormed off outsider the window. This pain in my heart burned however I had to ignore this pull towards him, he obviously seemed not to care so why should I?

As I walked down the stairs I looked at Noah, he looked gorgeous in his grey joggers and black hoody with chains around his neck. He didn't have a lip and ear pierceing like Lewis but he was hot. As I walked down he saw my arm and I looked at his. We both had dark marks. Unwantedly. Dumbeldore sent us an owl telling us he could try remove them from us however he was still testing now. Once I got outside Noah had transformed into his wolf and I got onto his back. Feeling his fur he had the most soft texture, I could hear him our from my touch making him feel less tense. No matter what lusting feelings I felt towards I loved Noah. We were endgame. I think. I want to give our relationship a go again. Me and him fell in love however I have changed. I'm different and I don't know if he will love this new Clara, Clara who can stand up for herself. Clara who can if she needs to go back to lewi..... nooo no no stop that Clara.

We had arrived at hogwarts and I jumped off and he instantly changed. Me and him just stood there and I stared into his eyes.

"Noah, I am not the same girl you fell in love with, I am a hybrid now, my personality has changed, and I am different. But I want you to know that I love you. And I want to try this (I saw whilst moving my fingers between us) again". After saying that I was interrupted with him smashing his lips onto mine. Moving quite quickly, desperately. I responded with the exact same wrapping my arms around his neck and pushing my body against his onto gate of the school. Luckily no one was there. Him realising how powerful I am not quickly flipped over and now my back was on the gate. Noah had never been this rough with me so he must understood how my strength had changed. God I loved him. He picked me up and my arm wrapped around the back of one of the poles of the gate. He moved his lips to my neck and kept sucking, causing me to moan softly. He moved his hand slowly down my dress and the onto me sweet spot. Causing me to quickly gasp. We had never done anything more than kiss becuase he had always been too strong and worried about hurting me. Also I think I wasn't ready and maybe he wasn't either. He was a gentleman. Still kissing my neck I couldn't my heavy breathing and then I felt a hand cup my mouth. And then Noah quickly ran and pushed us under the bridge of what we were previously stood on. He wanted me right now and I wanted him too. "Clara you are so beautiful" he said whilst ontop of me his hand around my wait and another keeping him balanced on his elbow. "And it's becuase of how much I love you, your not going to loose your virginity under a bridge in the dirt." Noah started laughing and picked me up and pecked me before we climbed out which would have been a struggle for old Clara but not anymore. As we walked through the front gate we were greeted by a very happy mgonaglle. She hugged us both and we went to our different common rooms to unpack. Obviously him being a slitherin and me being a hufflepff meant we had to be apart but I need a bit to calm down after the events that had just happened.

"What did you do to lavender" a cold angry voice had just stated.