Gaydar

Fall In Love With Me Please

So I'm a little upset that I chickened out of telling Caspian how I really feel, but at least we're finally friends again. That's good enough, right? No, not exactly.

Now that we're back to the usual gig, I find myself wanting more, wanting him. I know he's dating Gabby right now, but I can't help it. I think I should just come clean and tell him. I'm scared that it's going to ruin our friendship, but not telling him just drives me insane. Is saving the friendship more important than my mental health? My Instagram quote page says no to that.

"Hey Mason, can I tell you something?" Caspian mumbles as he shifts his eyes to the floor.

"Yeah, of course. You can tell me anything! We don't need to have secrets," I smile. Funny of me to say when I'm hiding my intense desire to kiss him right now. I've really fallen in love, I don't just "like" him anymore, I really think I love him.

"I've been replaying what happened today in the locker room over and over in my head, which made me realize some things. It led me to make some pretty impulse decisions and I wonder if I was too spontaneous."

"What kind of impulse decisions were these? Did you steal something?" I question, thinking on a legal scale since it sounded so dramatic.

"No," he chuckles. "I um...I kinda broke up with Gabby."

My jaw drops.

Down to the floor, no, beneath the ocean floor. To the entire Earth's core is where my jaw has dropped to. Now I'm burning up from the intense heatwave that just struck me, I think it's called opportunity.

"You and Gabby broke up?" I say with a little too much excitement.

"I broke up with her, yeah. I feel bad, but honestly we just didn't click. I think I tried to hard, when there wasn't really anything there," he mutters.

I try to calm myself down, trying not to jump up and down. I do this by telling myself that I'm a terrible friend for acting this way. Still, my conscious is yelling fall in love with me please so loudly.

"Are you okay? I really thought that you guys were doing well." I whisper, this is true at the very least.

"We were fine, but that's it. Fine, nothing more. I wanted more than that, I wanted a love that was better than just satisfactory." Caspian scratches the back of his neck.

"Me too, that's why I broke up with Noah. Well, technically it was because he called me a slut and a gay predator but that was another reason."

Caspian moves closer to me and puts his arm on my shoulder. "You're not either of those things, you know that right?"

I shake my head. "I know, but it hurt a little to hear it from him."

"If I knew he was like that, I wouldn't have ever introduced you to him," Caspian sighs.

"Looks like neither of our people ended up working then, but I'm still glad we went through it. Noah may have been horrible in the end, but the beginning wasn't so bad and I'm glad I got some experience in for the next time."

"E-Experience?" Caspian's eyes raise.

"N-No! Not like that!" I laugh, playfully hitting him. "I meant kissing and romantic stuff."

"Romantic stuff? Meaning sex?" he teases me.

I roll my eyes. "Funny how you're talking about me having sex when you know we just got accused of having it."

"Well we know it didn't happen between us, or apparently you and Noah. It's all lies, that's what Emily is trying to do. She's even spreading lies to her minions like Scarlett and Jack," Caspian murmurs.