Partners

13.

For the longest moment Elyssa stood there, staring to the spot the man (her father????) stood.

The car drove away few minutes ago, but I still waited for a minute before walking out of the hole. I walked towards Elyssa.

Come back only if you are ready to kill her.

She has to kill me. Or never go back there. 

"I am sorry." Elyssa whispered as I stood by her side.  She was still looking at the same spot. As if she was still reliving that conversation.  I put my hand on her shoulder and she suddenly looked at me. "I shouldn't have dragged you in to this. It is all my fault." She started ranting.

"Hey, hey stop this. You need to calm down. Abandoned ship cemetery isn't the right place to have the mental breakdown." I said and waved my hands around. Trying to lighten the situation.

"Yeah, yeah we need to get out of here, it is not safe to be here." Elyssa looked around and spotted her motorcycle. Her hands were a bit shaky, as she tried to put on her helmet.

When she tried to sit in to the front to drive the motorcycle, I put my hands-on top of hers. "I can drive it. Elyssa, you are too distracted to drive."  She nodded and moved to the side, allowing me to sit and start engine.

As I started driving out of the docks, she leaned closer to me. I could feel her head on my shoulder and her hands on my torso.

I parked in the back side of my building and we made our way towards my apartment. Elyssa's face and whole body acted like they were on auto-pilot, just doing what they were supposed to do to look normal.

But her eyes, were looking like a deeper shade of blue, the ocean of her eyes has turned into a hurricane. She sat on the ground, leaning on to the wall, and I sat in front of her leaning on to my bed. I didn't want to rush her, or force her to talk. Though I wanted to know what the fuck was going on.

"Do you think I am a bad person?" She spoke just above a whisper, and looked at me. I shook my head. "No, I don't think so. You just have a bad surrounding." Elyssa nodded without saying anything else.

"I am not who you think I am." She said suddenly. I raised my brows with a questioning look.  She moved her hands through her hair and sighed. "This is not right, I can't be here." She got up and before I could say anything she was standing by the door. She opened the door and turned to me. "I am sorry." With that she rushed out and even left the door open.

What the fuck was this?

Oh no. I am not letting her get away again. I jumped on my feet and rushed downstairs, I saw her getting on motorcycle as I was walking out of the building. "Stop, Elyssa. You are not thinking clearly right now." I said and she turned towards me.

"Please, just go inside, and stay there, don't go into crowded places, they are after you." She said. I stepped closer to her. But she moved away from me and got on her motorcycle. "I am endangering you, they will be looking for me." It was the last thing she said before driving off.

So many thoughts were going through my head. I couldn't think clearly, I couldn't even comprehend what just happened. I don't remember how I got back to my apartment, or got into my bed. All I remember was confusion and hurt. Elyssa's words from café hunted me. But she also apologized for them and then we were making progress but her gang elders got there. The whole thing is so bizarrely confusing that I can't feel anyway but hurt.

I woke up to a headache and a dark room. I groaned and took some pills. They made the headache fade but also made me lose my sleep. I sighed and took out my paints.

Best way to clear my head is to paint. I had 3 painting due for next week but I tried to not worry about it as I started doing something else.  I mixed a lot of blue and black trying to create a sea and adding a storm in the middle of it.

I let the painting distract me with its ups and downs, I let the sea carry me, when I stepped back to take a look sun was just rising. First pieces of sunlight shone on my painting.

Sea seemed even scarier under the sunlight. It was angry, it was violent. Canvas full of it, and sky which seemed to be just as angry as sea with its lightings and clouds. Only thing standing in between sea and sky was a small boat. Boat was right in the mouth of sea and storm, it was fine though. It only had one figure inside of it. And it was me.