Crime//XXXTENTACION

Eight

"Why Jahseh? Why dose the world hate me?" I asked laying on his chest.
   "It doesn't. I don't, lots of other people don't." He explained.
   "I'm bad Jahseh." I said siting up and turning away from him.
   "I'm toxic to the world. I'm miss Tay. I miss my dad. Fuck." I said putting my head down.
  "Well I love you." Jahseh said
 
And before I knew it, I felt his soft lips on mine.
  I felt sparks fly. Fireworks. No pain.
  Numb.
  I kissed back and we had o pull away for air.
  "I-I love you to jah." I said smiling.
    "Comeone. You need some rest babygirl." He said while laying me down and pulling the covers over us.
    I laid my head on his chest and he rubbed my back.
  Soon we both fell asleep.
  
 
   I woke up to Jahseh not in bed.
   I stood up and pulled down the revenge hoodie that he gave me last night.
   I walked down stairs to smell food.
  "Good morning jah." I said walking down the stairs.
   "Good morning beautiful." He said while smiling.
  "I thought you might be hungry. So I cooked, so it would make you closer to accepting me to be your husband."  He said while laughing.
   "Of course. Where's everyone else?" I asked sitting down.
    "Shit ion know. They probably ended up across the country.  one time! Ski and I got so drunk we picked up coolie, WiFi, and my friend trunks. And drove across the country." Jah said laughing and slapping his knee.
"You really think There across the country?" I said laughing.
   "Maybe. You never know." X said while placing my plate in front of me.
  This man made me eggs, bacon, sausage, pancakes.
  I carefully poured the syrup on my pancakes as Jahseh watched me.
  I placed the eggs on top of it and started eating.
   "Ewww Bonnie." He said smiling.
  "It's not gross. Try it." I said placing some eggs on a pancake and feeding it to him.
    "Wow. You pretty smart Bonnie." He said grinning mighty hard.
   Soon we finished eating and I grabbed both our plates and went to wash them.
  "You don't have to do that Bonnie." He said walking and holding me from behind.
  "I know. But you made breakfast. And let me stay here, it's the least I could do." I said putting the wet plates in the dish rack.
   "I should get going jah." I said while looking at him.
   Today marks four months since taymor died.
  And I was now not in the mood.
  I just wanted to be alone.
"Alright Bonnie. Text me. Stay safe." He said giving me a hug.
I hugged him back giving a and smile.
  I went to walk out the door and I'm popped stokeley, coolie, WiFi, and some Asian dude.
  "Where you going Bonnie." Ski asked me smiling.
  "Home." I quitely said and continued to walk out and across the street.
  
  "Hey bon bon." I heard tyquian say to me.
  I didn't reply. He knew what was up.
  "Bonnie. Come here now!" My mother yelled at me.
  Did I reply. No.
I went straight into my room and slammed the door and locked it.
   I took of Jahsehs revenge hoodie. And I slipped on tays hoodie. It had a black heart in the middle with B+T under it.
  He got this made when we were at the fair. It was the last thing he wore, There was still blood stains in it. and his mom gave it to me.
   About 10 minutes later, there was a knock on my door.
  I got up and unlocked it and look at my brother.
  "What do you want?" I asked wiping my tear full eyes.
   "Here. Take the black BMW. Go see him." tyquian said with remorseful eyes.
  "Thanks." I said. I took the keys and closed my door.
    I slipped on some black jeans with tays black sweat shirt, with some black Air Forces. Tays favorite shoes.
   I left my room and walked down the stairs.
  I pasted my mom who was in the living room watching tv.
  "What's wrong with you now?" She asked.
  "Leave me alone. If you really cared you would know." I replied and slammed the front door.
   As soon as i got outside I started crying.
   "Hey Bonnie!" I heard X yelled.
  "Wassguddd gurll!" I heard Ski yelled too.
  I waved and got into the car quickly.
I than turned on some music by Tay.
  "she drinks lemonade, I drink Lipton." I sung while crying.
   Soon enough I pulled up to the grave sight.
  I got out the car. And began crying even more when I saw his grave.
  "I miss you baby." I said crying.
  "You were my best friend. I'm so sorry."
   I placed a kiss on his stone where his picture was.
  "I love you so much." I said getting up and walking back to the car.
   There was a little memorial set up where he was killed and where I was shot.
   I got into my car and drove to the road a little past my house to his memorial.
   I parked on the side of the road and walked to his memorial.
  "Holy fuck man." I said crying harder and harder.
  "I fucking miss you." I said.
"I can't go on without you. I'm so done. You were my only support. My hearts breaking day by day. Soon I'll be with you. Just wait."
  I soon got back into my car and drove home.
  
  Once I was in the drive way. I laid my head down on the wheel.
  I got out the car and walked inside.
  "BONNIE BOWMAN. WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN."  My mother screamed at me.
   "I was visiting Tay." I said as more tears escaped my eyes.
   "He's all you care about. Did you go to where you almost got shot? I wish some one would of killed you while you were there." She said.
   This is the most hate full my Moms ever been.
   My lip began to quiver, I looked over to see tyquian coming into the living room.
   And I started to bawl out crying.
  "YOU NEVER FUCKING CARED. YOU WISHED I WAS DEAD. ILL MAKE IT EASIER FOR YOU!" I yelled running up stairs and locking my door.
   I picked up my glock and loaded it up.
   "You all hate me. Fuck this life. Without Tay who am I?" I said. I pointed the gun to my head.

But was stoped by a text.
 
Jahseh😽💓- heard your in a bad mood. Can I come over?

Bonnie🔗💋- not a good time.

Jahseh😽💓- I get it. You wanna be alone. And that's okay. But your brother thinks your gonna kill your self.
 
Bonnie🔗💋- so what.

Jahseh😽💓- I love you. You do that shit and I'll be gone with you.
-read 3:21pm

I didn't text him back.  Instead I picked up a book bag. But my glock In it. some weed, a lighter, blunts, and some Xanax, I threw a bottle of Hennessy in there too.
   I walked down stairs.
"Where are you off to now?" My mom said rolling her eyes.
  "Somewhere" I replied.
"12 is looking for you every where. Get caught." She said laughing.
  I soon left the house to see Jahseh out side.
   "Aye Bonnie!" I saw him get up. But I continued walking away.
      "Baby come here." Jahseh said while grabbing me.
  I Interlocked his fingers with mine and continued to walk.
  "Sooo. Where are we going?" He asked. I didn't answer.
  "Bonnie?" He asked again.
Soon he quit trying and just kept walking.
  Soon enough we arrived to an abandoned house.
I walked up the stairs and sat down, Jahseh sat down beside me.
  I opened my book bag and pulled out the bottle of Hennessy.
  "What is this place?" He asked.
"A old place." I said staring into the distance.
  "You got a blunt?" He asked.
I pulled one out and handed it to him.
  Why'd you come here. Like if I didn't tag along. What were you going to do?" He asked passing me the blunt.
  "Put 10 shots in my brain." I said shrugging my shoulders.
    "Why?" He asked laying on my lap.
  "I hate myself. After Tay dying. What's my point here." I said standing up.
   "Make a another point. Stay here for me. I hate myself. But ever sense I met you. You've shown me love." He said while smiling.
  I smiled back and helped him up.
   We walked back to our block in silence.
   "I think I'm gonna release my first song." He announced to me.
  "Yea?" I said lost in my thoughts.
  "Yea. I think I should." He said smiling.
  "Me too."
After that was said we're arrived to our houses.
"Bye. I love you." I said as I began to walk away.
"I love you too." With that he pulled me back and kissed my lips.
   When we pulled away I was blushing mighty hard and I knew it.
  "Bye jah." I said walking away.
  "Bye Bonnie baby." He said.
  I soon disappeared into my house.