Crime//XXXTENTACION

Ten

It's been about a month sense I've been in here.

Jahseh comes and visits me every day along with my brother. Even my mom came and apologized. She was gonna try to free me.

I was at my worse state right now.
I was so down. My heart is starting to hurt after phone calls.
I can't find the answer to what I'm living for.

"You've got a visitor Bonnie." I heard Officer Marley day.
She was my favorite officer, so sweet to me.

"Tell em to go home." I softly said.
"Oh bonnie. It's that boy who always comes to see you. Your boyfriend?"
"Tell em to go home. I'm breaking his heart day by day. It's been a month and he still hasn't found another lover."
"Because he loves YOU bonnie, now lets go." She said as I slowly stood up.
I slowly walked to the booth. And sat down.

"Hey baby." I heard his soft voice say.
I broke down into tears.
"What do you want Jahseh" I said crying even more.
He put his hand up to the glass and said
"We're gonna get you out soon. I'm all by myself bon. Everyone moved out to there own houses for now. They got mad because I didn't want random bitches in and out trying to fuck." He said looking down.
"Oh"
"But we're finding a bigger house. That way we can all move back together. Plus you." He said smiling mighty hard.

"Baby. If I get outa here. Who's gonna even get me out."
"Your mom is coming today to bail you out. Ima take you and get you some real food."
"Times up." Officer Marley said.
"I love you soo soo soo much Jahseh." I said.
"I love you more baby." He said.
He watched me stand up and leave.

.............time skip.............

"Let go bonnie. Your outta hea." I heard a man say.
"Shit? Really!" I said jerking up. But quickly sat back down. I felt so weak. I've barely eaten and I looked like a skeleton.
"You Okay Bonnie?" He said opening my cell and helping me walk.
I changed my cloths and was out.

I saw Jahseh standing with stokeley, and the rest of the crew.
"Hey." I said as the officer helped me walk over to them.
"What's wrong Bonnie?" Jahseh did grabbing me from the officer.
  "Why haven't you been eating. I can tell your a walking skeleton!" Jahseh said looking at my body.
   "I don't know. Can we please get out of here." I said trying to walk out.
  "I-yea that's fine."  We all walk to the parking lot. I saw
My brother standing there smoking a blunt.
   I got lose from jahsehs grip and walked over to him and hugged him.
   Than I saw Melly get out the car.
  "Where the fuck have you been?" I asked giving him a hug.
  "I had some stuff to deal with. But it's all good now." He said smiling.
    "Bonnie. Honey. C-can you come home?" My mother asked about to cry.
   "Ion see why not." I simply said.
  Soon we all got into cars.
   Tyquian got into his with Melly. My mom drove alone, ski took Trippie, coolie, WiFi, and ayleks. While me and jahseh drove together.
  
"You hungry baby?" He asked placing a hand on my thigh.
  "Yes daddy." I said grabbing his hand.

  "I like that. Don't change it. What you wanna eat? Any where you wanna go." X asked me interlocking our fingers while focusing on the road.

"Ummm can we get IHOP? I want pancakes, and your probably want a steak." I said tracing the word kill on his hand.

"Umm Bonnie. That's not how you say it." Jah said In a girly voice.
     "Oh lord Jahseh."

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            Time skip to IHOP
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"What you want to eat baby? I'll go in and get it." Jah said kissing my hand.
   "Chocolate chip pancakes, with bacon. Pleaseeee" I said smiling.
   "Anything for you babygirl." Jahseh said pecking my lips. 
   He than got out the car, and walked inside.
 
His sound cloud was playing. And a song called tightrope came on.
  It was so angelic.
The next song that came on was called vice city. I listened and got the words down after replying it about 2 times.
  
Soon Jahseh came back into the car.
  "I-I like your music baby." I said as he handed me the bags of food.
 
"Really you do. Which ones did you listen to?" He ask as he started to back out.
   "One called tightrope and vice city." I said playing with my fingers.
   "I've been working on more. I'll release them soon." He said grabbing my hand.
 
   Soon we arrived back to his house.  We sat in the drive way.

"Did anyone move back in yet?" I asked.
   "Yea everyone's back and Ming moved in too." Jahseh said.
  "Who's Ming?"
"Some Asian dude from members only. He's chill a good friend." Jahseh said smiling.
  "Ughhh stokeleys fat ass is home. He gonna be asking fo my food and making gay jokes." Jahseh said rolling his eyes.
  "Wanna eat at my house? My mom won't come In my room. And mellys hanging out with Tyquian." I said looking at him.
  He started to back out his drive way and into mine.
  "Ion feel like walking. You know a mans gotta be lazy" Jahseh said grabbing the bags of food while we left the car.
   I quickly but quitely opened my door. Making sure no one was there to talk too.
  I knew my room wasn't mess because it was always clean, and when ever I was sent away somewhere, my mom never came in my room.
   "Come on. But be quite, ion wanna talk to anyone." I said while he grabbed my hand.
   I quitely walked up the stairs but I noticed Tyquian's door was open and I could hear him and melly singing to write a song.
   "Whatever they won't do nun." I said. Jahseh still held my hand as I guided him to my room.
   "AYE BONNIE!" I heard Tyquian's loud ass mouth say.
   "Fuck you want?" I said continuing to walk to my room.
   "I got sum thing to show you." He said.
  "No the fuck you dont. You know you would think the older sibling would be annoyed by the younger." I said unlocking my door, placing the keys in my pocket.
   "Yea well." Tyquian said like a child.
    Me and jahseh walked into my room. Before Tyquian or Melly could walk In. I slammed the door on his face.
  
  "I swea, he's so fucking annoying!" I said punching my wall.
   "Calm down Bonnie." Jahseh said as he came over and lead me to the bed to sit.
  
In juvie my anger issues came back even worse. I'm mad at so many people.

   "Here ya go." Jahseh said handing me my box of pancakes with bacon.

  "I got you some French toast too." He said as he put it down for me.
  "Thanks jah." I said as I opened up my food.

"Bonnie Bowman. Open this god damn door!" I heard my mother yell on the other side.
   "WHY!" I yelled back continuing to eat.
  "WHY THE FUCK IS IT LOCKED? YOU TRYING TO FUCKEN KILL YOUR SELF AGAIN."  She yelled laughin at the end.

"Again?" Jahseh said looking up at me.
 
I put my food down on my desk and stood up.
"Oh lord Bonnie don't hurt her again." I mumbled under my breath.
 
I walked over to the door, unlocked it and jerked it open.
 
"Fuck do you want. I'm not hurting a damn soul." I said irritated.
 
  "Fuck you doing up here?" She said being nosey.
  "I'm eating with Jahseh." I said as I moved out the way and he waved.
 
  "That ain't all you eating." She said rolling her eyes.
    "Okayy and your mad why. I can't help it you gotta pay and fly to them just for sum dick, fuck outta my face." I said rolling my eyes now.
   "Damn Bonnie your a whore. First Tay, now him. You probably end up getting him killed too." She said smiling. I know that she loves to piss me off.  Than she'll call the cops, and blame me for everything.
     "get the fuck out." I whispered to her.
"What the hell did you say bonnie?" She said putting her hand on her hips.
  I got up in her face and whispered in her ear,
  "Get the fuck away from me before I blow your shit. Don't ever disrespect Tay again. I'll fucking stab you, chop up your body parts and dumb you into a river. I'll smear your blood on my face. And I'll be proud. So I recommend that you get the fuck away from me." I whispered and backed away.
    Tyquian and melly both were out side the room now, as my moms face got covered with fear.
  Nobody knows what I told her.
  "Your fucken crazy Bonnie. Your a fucken murderer. You probably killed Tay." She said speed walking away.
 
  I ran after her and pushed her against the wall.
  "Fuck did you say? Disrespecting him again?" I said.
  She didn't talk just stood in fear.
   "I.didn't.kill.Tay." I said with every word I slammed her harder and harder against the wall.
  "That's enough bonnie." My brother said. This was semi normal to our house hold.
   I didn't listen I just stared her In the eye.
  "You want me to be a murderer so much.." I said while pulling my gun out and aiming it at her brain.
  I turned on the red scope. And pointed it between her eyes.
  "Stay clear of me. You got that I said and with that I walked back into my room with X and slammed the door.