almost is never enough

10

Cole's POV~

We are heading to the hospital and I can't keep my eyes away from Lily, she just looks so.... weak.

I feel so guilty, this is all my fault, I shouldn't have never left her especially in her condition.

I was stupid to breakup with her instead of being a good boyfriend and helping her get better.

I made a mistake that might end up with her dead. And I will never forgive myself for it.

I move closer to her unconscious body and gently kiss her pale face

We drive for a little longer and then we finally arrive

"We're here, get her to the ER!" The driver orders

The medic's open the ambulance back door and quickly take Lily to the hospital doors.

I start following them but when they enter the ER a doctor stops me.

"I'm sorry sir, your not allowed to come"

"You don't understand! I need to be with her!"

"I'm afraid that can't be possible"

I start getting angry and I'm about to punch the doctor but a sudden wave of emotion goes through me and I fall to my knees and start crying.

The doctor stares at me for a while, gives me a pat on the back and leaves.

I stay on the floor sobbing for I don't know how long and I hear Cami and KJ arrive.

"Cole?" KJ asks

I don't answer and keep crying on the floor, they don't try to stop me and just go sit on the waiting room chairs

Cami starts saying something but I can't listen, every feels fuzzy, I feel like I'm underwater and I can't stop thinking about Lily and how I could have prevented this.

A nurse comes and asks me if I wanted to get my bleeding head checked out and I'm
about to go with her but a doctor's voice stops me.

"Lily Reinhart? Who is here for Lily Reinhart?"

I immediately go with him and so does KJ and Cami

"Are you guys family?"

I stay silent

"We are her step siblings" Cami lies pointing to KJ and her

"And he is her boyfriend" Cami says giving me a nervous look

I look at the floor, ashamed of being called her boyfriend after what I did to her

The doctor doesn't seem convinced but nods and leads us to Lily's room anyway

We arrive at her room and I open the door and see Lily in a hospital gown laying on the bed with her eyes closed and with an IV attached to her and a heart monitor showing us her heartbeats

"Is she gonna wake up?" KJ asks with a low tone

The doctor takes a deep breath

"Miss Reinhart has fallen into a coma" the doctor announces

My eyes go wide and I start getting nauseous

"Her lack of nutrients and her loss of blood really messed up her health"

I look at her heart monitor and notice her low heartbeats, tears fall down my face once again.

3 days later

Lily hasn't woken up yet

And I've never left her side

I can't stop staring at the heart monitor

At her slow heartbeats

I'm afraid their gonna stop at any second.

Lily hasn't been improving much, she has only regained a little color on her face but that's it.

A friend of hers donated some blood to make up for all the blood she lost since she was the only one we could find with her uncommon blood type.

All the guilt is eating me alive, I wish she could wake up and I could apologize to her and demonstrate all the love that I have for her.

I feel like shit for making her feel that I didn't love her.

Cami and KJ come here pretty often too but they are also busy handing other things for Lily outside the hospital.

I walk over to her bed and just stare at her.

It's something I've been doing a lot lately.

I just stare at her, at my beautiful love, whom I destroyed.

Just because I couldn't find the strength help her.

I keep staring at her and suddenly I hear a long beep sound.

I immediately look at the heart monitor and see a straight line

I suddenly can't breathe and see doctors entering the room quickly to attend Lily

I can't think straight and start getting dizzy.

I loose my balance and fall to the floor.

But I'm still awake.

I can still see how the doctors are doing what they can to save the life of the person that owns my heart

Doctors keep trying everything and after a minute or two they give up.

She is dead.

She's dead

I get nauseous and puke on the floor

She's dead and it's all my fault.

I stand up weakly and go and look at her one last time

I grab her hand and kiss it repeatedly whispering "I'm so sorry, I failed you, I'm so sorry"

It wasn't supposed to end like this.

We were supposed to live happily ever after.

I fell to the floor once again and just hid my face with my hands

I will never see her again

I loved her so much

And then suddenly

Beep Beep Beep

I immediately stand up and look at her monitor which is now beeping

I look back at her face and her ocean eyes open.

wow.

I really hope you enjoyed this book as much as I enjoyed writing it

Thank you guys for everything I hope you liked the final chapter

Have an amazing summer!!

Love -V💞