almost is never enough

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Author's note:

Im feeling really discouraged to continue with this story, but I will put an end to it. This story will be 10 chapters long with at least 1,000 words each. Im sorry if I disappoint some of you, I did plan on making it longer but I just don't feel inspired anymore. Also its probably gonna take a while for me to update. Love you all! -V💕

Lili's POV

Its 3 a.m, I'm on my laptop, reading hate comments on twitter, eating like an absolute pig, I just couldn't resist myself.

"Why is she even alive, she ruins the show"

"Ugh I can't stand looking at her disgusting face"

"She should kill herself, no one will miss her anyway"

But they are not trying to hurt me, they're just trying to help me....right?

Help me reach perfection.

I run to the bathroom and stare at my figure once again with absolute disgust.

God I'm so worthless. My belly was 3 times larger than it was before, my thighs were bigger than ever, my face was surrounded by triple chins and chubbiness, I had ruined all my hard work, how could I be so stupid.

Hot tears start streaming down my face, but my sadness soon turns to anger, anger against myself

"God damnit, why are you so disgusting Lili. You should've tried harder you pig! You aren't doing enough" I scream to myself

But I will do better, better than before. I won't make the same mistake twice. Soon I'll be beautiful, Cole deserves to have someone skinny to love, soon fans won't need to correct me, soon I will be perfect, nothing is stopping me.

The next day

I wake up and get ready to go to the gym for the first time, I walk down the stairs and find Cami putting on makeup in a little black dress looking gorgeous.

"Where are you going" She asks me, while applying mascara

"I think I should be asking you that Cams, whose the lucky guy?" I ask with excitement

Cami starts blushing "Melton" she says getting redder

"I knew it!, I've always shipped you two" I screamed

"Shut up already, were just hanging out" she claims

"Okaaayy" I say with a smirk heading out the door.

I get in my car and start driving to the gym. I enter the doors and inhale the unfamiliar scent

I start walking through the different machines deciding which one should I start with, finally deciding on the spinning bike, I began climbing on it but a familiar voice stopped me

"Lili?" someone says behind me, I turn around and see KJ staring at me with a surprised expression

"Your the last person I'd imagine hitting at the gym, you're always complaining about what a waste of time it is" he says laughing

"Yeah, I decided to try something new, I guess" I said with a soft smile

That's great, you can workout with me if you want, I can guide you through your first day here" he offered

"That would be great, I doubt I would survive this crazy place by myself" I joked

KJ's POV

I was exited to start working out with Lili, I decided that the treadmills would be a good start so we headed towards them.

"So since its your first day here I recommend for you to start with 20 minutes on the treadmill"

"And how many calories would that burn?" She asks immediately

I stare at her for a while and finally spoke "Depends on the speed and inclination" I answer

"Okay thanks"

"No problem, I'm going to lift some weights call me if you need anything"

"Okay" she awnsered

I started doing my own workout and constantly checking on Lili, she looked very determined, I couldn't say I wasn't proud.

I continued to guide Lili through the gym and we both had a great workout

"You did good Reinhart"

"Thanks, I really like it here"

"I can tell" I told her grinning "want to go out to get something to eat? I'm starving."

"I'm not really hungry"

"I can't remember last time we hung out like this, cmon Lili pleeaaseee?"

"Ugh fine you dork, but only cause I missed this"

"Missed what?"

"Our friendship, I feel like we've lost touch lately"

I smiled at her and then we leave the gym

Lili's POV

We headed to my car and I began driving

"So were do you wanna go?" I asked

"They just opened a new pizza place!" he began excitedly "we have to go"

I resist the urge to gag hearing about pizza, that greasy disgusting food sounds extremely disgusting right now.

"Pi-Pizza sounds great" I reply biting my lip

And then KJ gets all exited and starts dancing like a five year old and I laugh at how adorable he is.

We get to the pizza place and choose a table on the corner, I spot a waitress heading towards us, she has long brown hair that match perfectly with her hazel eyes, and her skinny figure.

"What can I get for you two?" She asked nicely

"I'll have the pepperoni pizza" KJ said

"Sure thing, and you" she asked me

"I'll have the salad please" I said

"Okay, I'll be here with your orders soon" She said

"What a waste of pizza, a fucking salad, seriously?" He said laughing

I just laughed at his silly comment

A few minutes later the waitress came with our orders.

"Here you go, enjoy!" She said and left to another table

KJ started eating his pizza with a smile on his face and I was just staring at my salad

"Damn, this pizza is delicious" he said and then looked at me "aren't you gonna eat your salad?"

"Uh yeah, I was just... thinking" I said and started to eat some salad

We talked for a while and had a great time. I arrived home and began going through tumblr, I had found a page a few weeks ago with girls that were also trying to lose weight, it was great, I had made a lot of friends there, they helped me starve myself and we all shared different methods and stuff, they are helping a lot, we are slowly reaching perfection together, but we couldn't do it without our leader, her name is Ana.

Author's note~

For the users who don't understand who Ana is, Ana is represented as the voice in Lili's head leading her to anorexic thoughts, I will explain more about her in the next chapter. Love you!! -V💞