Mine // Billie Eilish

staying or going

I said bye to the nurse I was talking to and ended the phone call. I felt my heart ache. So much I couldn't breathe. Billie had been in an accident. Right after we had our fight. I started crying uncontrollably. My Billie is hurt and it's all because of me. Lily stood next to me and asked me what's wrong. Basically, everyone was looking at me. I was still at the party. I tried to have fun but couldn't stop thinking Billie and how I let her down. I hurt her so badly she crashed herself. Lily asked me again what was wrong now more worried. Everyone was looking at me. I almost know everyone at this party. Isaac always invited the same people. I looked at everyone who was crowded around me.

"Billie is in the hospital. She had a car accident and she hasn't woken up yet" I could barely say the sentence that's how bad it hurt. I know I was never really nice to her but for some reason, I thought we were close. I care about her and I don't know why. Everyone was shocked. Everyone knew Billie as well.

"I'm going to check on her. She asked to, I'll call Isaac and keep you all updated." I decided. Everyone nodded silently and I rushed my way out. Lily followed me.

"I'm coming with you." she said blankly. I nodded as I tried to stop the tears from rolling down my face. The car ride was completely silent and I liked it that way. I couldn't talk, literally. My throat had a clump in it. (imaginary duh) Billie. Billie. Billie. I kept repeating her name in my head. What if she died. I can't lose her. What did I do!? Why did I hurt her like that? I can't figure anything out anymore. We arrived and I immediately got to the reception. Lily hurried after me but I couldn't give less shits about her.

"I'm here for Billie." I quickly said.

"She's room 576" the woman stated.

I ran my way down the hall and got in the elevator. We reached the top floor and searched for the room. It was at the end of this really long hall. Sidenote this hospital is hella scary. I stood in front of the door. Here she is. Billie. I don't want to see her in pain. I hesitated about opening the door and thought about going back to the party. But I have to enter, don't I? This all my fault and I have to deal with it.

Billie's p.o.v

I slowly opened my eyes. The pain was still unbearable. I sighed and that's when I noticed the door open. It was Kirai. She came. I can't believe she came. Her eyes were so red and her cheeks still wet. She's been crying. Crying over me? When I saw her open the door completely I got a glimpse of Lily standing in the doorway. Why the fuck is she here. My brain hurt from thinking. Kirai closed the door again leaving lily outside. Good, I don't want that bitch in here. Kirai sat by my bed and stared into my eyes.

"I lived bitch." I mumbled. My voice was still shaky. Kirai chuckled and her eyes lit up.

"Thank fucking god you did" she smiled.

God, I fucking love her. I don't care if she doesn't as long as she's here I feel okay.

"I'm staying here until I can take you home safely."

That comment warmed my whole body up making the pain disappear for a slim second and everything felt okay.

--

A week had passed and I was allowed to go home. The week I had was amazing. Kirai never left my side and all my friends came to visit. The food was absolutely awful and but Kirai managed to sneak some Takis in. Went visiting hours ended and Kirai left I felt empty again. My life is nothing without her. My fans also heard about the news and we're all sending me nice and sweet messages. God, I love them too. Kirai came to pick me up and brought me some Takis. She rode me home and the ride was silent. After this she'll go back to that Lily bitch and forget about me again. I can't stand it and won't keep silent about it.

"Break up with her." I said blankly staring at the road.

"No."

"Why?"

"Because." It seemed like the conversation ended there but I kept going.

"Pull over." i went to get out of this car. I don't want to deal with it anymore.

"No why?"

"pull over or I'm jumping out of the car."

"No Billie I'm not pulling over" Kirai stated.

Alright if that's what she wants I'll jump. I quickly opened the car door and jumped out.

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Kirai's p.o.v

WHAT THE FUCK. BILLIE JUST JUMPED OUT WHAT THE FUCK. I can't fucking believe her. I immediately stopped the car and got out.

"What the fuck Billie!" I screamed as I ran my way over to her. We just came out of the hospital and probably have to go back now. Billie just laid on the road. I got down to pick her up and we got really close to each other. I stared in her eyes. I broke eye contact and got her up and basically dragged her back to the car in absolute silence. She got back in her seat and I did in mine. We looked at each other in the eye and didnt break eye contact this time. I want her so bad it's hurting my brain.

"Billie" I whispered

Suddenly I felt her lips against mine I put my hands on her cheeks and started kissing back passionately. We pulled out of the kiss and Billie chuckled.

"Whaaaat?" I said in a high tone. Billie looked back at the road and smiled.

"You can't stay away from me Kirai and you know it."