Mine // Billie Eilish

a toxic kiss

Billie's p.o.v

I finally decided to step out of my comfort zone and agreed to go to Isaac's party. I was secretly hoping for Kirai to be there. I still want her so bad. I just desire one last kiss so I could get her out of my system. Maybe I should. Whatever. I put on a hoodie and some large ass pants. I put in my earbuds and walked to Isaac's place. I tried not to attract too much attention because I don't need any fans attacking me right now. when I arrived I heard Isaac yell.

"AAAAAAAY BILLIE" 

Maybe I shouldn't have come. I can't really deal with these loud ass people right now. Isaac has kind of been working on my nerves recently. (is that a saying? idk i'm dumb asf) He's lowkey annoying as hell but I try to act like I like him. I pulled out my earbuds and greeted him when I saw Kirai staring at me. I guess she noticed I caught her watching me because she ran inside. I quickly ran after her. Maybe it's time to get her out of my system once and for all.

Kirai's p.o.v

Fuck Billie saw me staring. I got my way back inside trying to hide from her. Thats when I saw the Cheetos. Fuck I forgot these were here. Maybe this could get Billie of my mind. I walked over to the bowl before I got pulled aside. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. I WANT MY FUCKING CHEETOS. I looked at the bitch who I'm gonna kill tonight when I saw icy blue eyes staring at me. Billie. Before I could push her off of me she kissed me. Wtf?! I pushed her out of the kiss when I saw someone in the corner of my eye. Lily stood there with her mouth hanging open. OH MY FUCK- Before I knew it she ran off. Great fucking hell. I looked at Billie with a dead look in my eyes before running off to go console Lily. I can't lose her. she was crying in the corner. Fuck , I hurt her.

"Lily I'm so sorry."  She didnt respond but then got up and stared me in the eyes. I felt a hard clap against my cheek. OH, she slapped me. Well I deserved it. But the next thing she said hurt me more than the slap.

"We're over." Lily walked away while I just stood there. I can't. I can't fuck. Don't u dare cry kirai. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around to Billie.

"I'm so sorry kirai."

"Oh fuck you Eilish." I spat

I slapped her across the face and stormed my way outside. I have no one now. No one. I lost her and I deserved it. I was such a bitch for sleeping with Billie. Fuck I didn't wanna lose her. I got in my car only to see Billie standing infront of it.

"Move out of the way you bitch."

"No"

"Then I guess I'll have to run you over"
I started my car and moved forward only to hit Billie. She screamed.

"What the fuck bitch!"

"I said I was gonna run you over."

"Fine. Kirai run away. Just know I'll always be here for you."

"Whatever" I rolled my eyes and drove away. I took a look on how my life is right now. Yeah it fucking sucks. I have no girlfriend. I have a toxic relationship with a superstar. my friend Yara has been to busy with her stupid boyfriend Isaac. My parents haven't been home in over 9 months and my grades are dropping harder than James Charles subcount. Sooner or later I'll be working at Macdonalds my whole life.

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Billie's p.o.v

I can't fucking believe it. I hurt Kirai again. How am I this toxic? Her relationship is ruined and its all becuase of me. I don't even have her out of my system. I want her more then ever right now. I quickly walked back home becuase if Kirai isn't there there's no reason to stay. I didn't greet my mom, went straight upstairs and slammed my bedroom door shut behind me. I turned the lights on and put my Tyler the creator playlist on. I plopped on my bed and fell on my notebook. AW that shit hurt. I pulled it out under from me and opened it. I started finishing the song about Kirai I had made earlier and recorded it. I sent the song to my producer and waited for a reply. He loved it. He said he'd meet me in 1 hour at the greenroom. I'm not really in the mood to go but I know he'd get mad if I didn't. I packed my bag for nessecities I'd need there. It mostly just contained of food and called for my brother.

"Finneas we're going to the greenroom!" I shouted from downstairs. I never do anything without him. He sprinted his way downstairs with his coat already on.

"Let's go" he said excited.