breakups

Day 1

I didn't know that he feels like this. I didnt know anything. I'm sitting here since, almost 10 hours. Crying. My eyes they fucking hurt. I hate this feeling...cant I just forget him? It's so hard... Everything seemed fine yesterday. And I didn't know.. I didn't know that this day would come.. I didn't know anything. I'm so tired. So mother fucking tired. He was the only reason for me to live. I guess, I was getting used to be someone he loved. It's like a dark hole in my heart. A hole that gets bigger and bigger, every time I think of him. I want him back.. Please.. God please... I love him... I wish I could've said, how much I love him. Why me? Why me... I miss him.. I miss everything about him. His long messages, his voice.. His laugh.. I miss the nights, I secretly went to get my phone.. Just to text him "I love you".... Was he happy with me? Did I do something wrong? Now I can't even fall asleep... And If I do, I dream of him... I just don't want this anymore... This feeling... He is a beautiful person.. He took care of me, was always there for me.... But I wasn't.. I'm so disappointed of myself.. I wish I could turn back time and be a better girlfriend.. I don't know if he'll see this but... Hey.. I still love you... I just want u to be happy so, it's okay..