A Moment in Time

02: Inhibitions

There are moments in my life that how I wish hindi na lang nangyari ang mga bagay bagay.

Staring at the presentation of our lecturer, my mind keeps wandering nowhere. I don't have time questioning myself again. It was all long ago, why bother keeping on track.

-ping!-

Someone chatted me.

Nareel: Hi Yana! Its been a while.

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What the hell.

I never expected he is this fast. Kaninang umaga ko pa ata to in-unblock ahhh.

Ako: Hi Nareel.

Nareel: How are you Yana?

Ako: Still doing fine and trying to be fine. Haha Ikaw? Kumusta?

Nareel: Heto, I'm travelling to manila for some affairs.

Ako: Affairs? Hindi ko alam na nagbagong buhay kana ha. Pakilala mo naman ako sa mga ka-affair mo. 😉

Goodness Yana! Anong pumasok sa kokote mo at may pa-emoji kapa. Landi mo!

Ano yun? My gosh nakakahiya.

Nareel: Hehe. Oo, why not ba? Are you free on dinner?

Ako: ARE YOU ASKING ME OUT?

That was smooth Nareel. Sabi ko na nga ba ehh. Ngayon ko lang napansin na my palms are sweating. Shiiit. Ano to?

Mejo matagal siyang nagreply. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. I'm panicking. Wait. Hell no. Please Nareel. Tell me it was just a joke.

Nareel: Yes, Yana. I am asking you out. Are you available tomorrow night?

Ako: Ok. Just pm me where.

Nareel: Yes boss. See you.

I stared at my phone for a while and put at in my bag. Damn Nareel. Boss. That was our endearment. Hindi mo parin ba nakakalimutan yan.

Napasabunot ako sa ulo ko. My heart is beating faster. Butterflies are in my stomach. My hands are sweating. Kinakabahan ako? Hahaha sarap sapakin ang sarili ko ngayon ha. Hindi ko na trip to pero bakit ba hindi ako makatanggi sayo. Why just can't I ever say no to you Nareel. I am over with this. Ever since high school umayaw nako. Bakit ngayon Nareel. Bakit ngayon pa. Okay ka naman diba?

"Yanny... the Crib later?" -Ate Kelly

Binalik ako ni Ate Kelly in real life. Boardmate ko siya this time. Somewhat, kinda she needs me to be her guide in manila. Well, I could use some company. Hindi naman ako ganyan ka bitchesa. Aloof lang minsan. Gusto ko ng private life. Actually, I like her. I can trully show myself to her with no inhibitions. And tanggap niya ako. No matter who I am or what I am. Ramdam ko yun. Iba din pala talaga yung feeling na tanggap ka ng isang tao. Kung single pa lang nga siguro siya, I will court her. Hahaha. Minsan nga I ask myself if baka tibo ako because of her.

"Yes Ate. I have something to tell you. And I need your expert advise." Sagot ko. Well as expected, she smiled and winked at me while mouthing.

"I know. Laters. Makinig kana!" Sabay turo sa board.

Hahai.

Hindi ko na alam anong gagawin ko sa buhay ko. Gusto ko ng matapos ang board exam nato. I just want to move on with my life. Gusto ko ng maging proud si papa sa akin. Sawa na ko sa feeling na palagi na lang ganito. Palagi na lang, that I need someones approval for my happiness.

Last nato.

Last na talaga.

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