I Am Cersei Rose

17

It took us days to reach the Duke, and I carried Snow every step of the way. My arms were tired, and my eyes sore from crying. But my heart hurt the most.

The bells played soberly for us as we walked into the castle, Eric and Will first, then myself and Snow, surrounded by the dwarves.

I held no emotion on my face as I carried her. She was light, but her heart was heavy. She wasn't breathing. Her skin had blue tinges from the cold.

She was rotting in front of me. And I could do nothing.

Villagers gathered around the exit to greet us, but bowed their head when they saw Snow, limp.

I refused to let anyone take her away from me. When Eric had tried to carry her two days ago to give me some rest, I screamed and kicked and fought so hard they had to have three dwarves and William to hold me down. They decided it would be best if I carried her.

I bathed her and washed her hair with her old favourite soap, dressed her in a white gown and placed her on a fur bed. I sat by the fire, leaning on the sides of it, watching over her. After a while, Eric came in and joined me, sitting a few feet away.

He drank and looked at me, but said nothing. He knew no words could comfort me. No actions could soothe my aching soul. Just her. And she was dead.

I got up, slightly tipsy from the drink I had been having, and walking towards my sister. I looked at her.

"Well, here you are, all dressed up like you're about to wake up and give me more grief. Am I right? You deserved better" I said, sitting by her side.

"I was taken away from you for a year. That pain means nothing compared to this. I hated her. But I loved you" I began to cry. "I was scarred, beaten, scared. I was broken and I sure as hell wasn't worth the time trying to put me back together. But you did anyway. And I loved you
with all my heart, with all my soul.

"You remind me of mother" I sniffed. "You remind me of how kind she was. How beautiful her soul was. How golden her heart was. You have her heart. You have her spirit. You deserved so much better than this, and I am so, so sorry I couldn't give it to you" I said sincerely, looking at her solid, unflinching and unfeeling face.

I leaned down and kissed her forehead, a tear rolling down my cheek as I regarded her. It was my farewell. She would be buried soon. I would have to let her go.

Closing my eyes and placing my forehead against hers, I whispered in the large hall. "I love you".

I got up and left, Eric behind me to help me stand, and I walked. Away from my sister. Away from that bond we shared. Away from the light.

And into the darkness.

I stormed out of the castle. Looking at every last man in the yard I stood in. "To hell with that fucking queen!" I screamed. Silence greeted me. "That queen has taken everything from me! Every last piece of who I was. Every damn thing. She has taken it from you all! Be it husbands or wives, children or pets, she's done it!"

"It's about time she played her part in this show. It's about time she cashed her hand in this. She wants to kill the light? She wants only darkness? Well now she had killed MY light. Now, I am in the darkness. Today, it ends. With or without any of your help, the bitch is dead. So who of you has lost. Who of you stands here right now in front of me with nothing to their name? Because, you have nothing to lose. Who will fight against her? Who will help me? Because I am taking her life with my own hands. I don't care if I die. Who will fight with me?" I yelled.

Around me, men screamed 'I'. Eric glanced at me and smiled, then looked behind me with a shocked expression. I frowned and followed his gaze. Standing before me, alive and well, was Snow.

My sister.

I gasped and she smiled lightly at me. I gaped at her, before running to her with all my power. People marvelled around me. I lifted her into my arms, holding her tightly to me by her hair and burying my face in her neck.

"Oh gods" I looked at her face, cupping my hands around her cheeks and smiled, letting out a breath I had been holding. "Death has spared you"

"We need to attack. Like you said, we need to go" I looked at her with shock.

"Do you not want to rest?" She shook her head with defiance.

"We've rested for 7 years. That is long enough" I smiled proudly at her.

I grabbed her hand and turned to the people around me. "She tried to kill us. Tried to poison your princess. Tried to break your true queen. But ink does spill. Tears do dry and crowns do melt. I am not prepared to live another day in this hell. I'd rather die than live in this death. Even though my light has returned to me" I looked at my sister and smiled, rubbing my thumb on her hand.

"Will you still stand with me?" Fists raised, men cheered. They bowed to us both as wind blew in our hair. It was a sense of overwhelming success and enthusiasm, and in the middle of it all, was Eric. He was smiling and smirking at the same time, grinning, I suppose. He looked into my eyes and bowed.

Before me, was an army. Before me was my sister. Before me was my rightful throne.

And I was going to take it for once in my life. I was going to do something for me. Not for the kingdom, not for Snow. I want to kill her. Me. An I will.