Never Been Said

Part 5

January 6, 2018. At World of Fun, SM City Lucena. Yung piso machine dun where you're going to insert one peso coin tapos may malalaglag na barya, kapalit nito ay ang maraming tickets, naglaro kami dun. Sobrang happy namin whenever makaka-bonus kami. At yun nga, after spending lot of money din naman, we got almost 1800 tickets. Pinapalitan namin, I mean niya. Siya naman gumastos nun eh. Tinuro nya yung isang stuffed toy dun na aso. A brown stuffed dog na may naka-embroid na Woffy. 1500 naman ang nakalagay na number of tickets nya. Ang ganda nung stuffed toy. Ang sarap siguro kung akin yun. My mind says. Syempre kay Candixe nya yun ibibigay.

"Para sa'yo yun.", he told me. And I was speechless.

"Wow!! Talaga? Thank you!", I answered. Oo. Nag thank you agad ako. Naku! Baka bawiin pa.

May naalala kasi ako. When I was in high school, I have something dun sa isa kong friend. Nasa SM din kami that time, dun sa crane na nilalaro, nakakuha sya ng spongebob na stuffed toy din. Tapos sabi nya, para sa akin daw yun. Kaso ang sagot ko "Eh? Talaga?", ayun binawi, wag na lang daw at parang ayaw ko naman daw. Kaya ko lang naman sinabi yun kasi baka nagjojoke lang siya hindi kasi ako makapaniwala. Masyado akong naspeechless na ibibigay nya sken yun. Tas sabi nya "Dapat kasi nagthank you ka na lang."

"Wait lang picturan ko lang.", he said when the lady handed it to him.

ANg lawak ng ngiti ko. Kasi OMG! First time na may nagbigay sken ng stuffed toy. Dati lang pinapangarap ko na sana may magbigay din saken ng stuffed toy. Gusto ko syang tanungin na "Bakit mo ako binigyan? Akala ko para kay Candixe ito. Why me?? WHYYYY??" But again, those words have never been said. I chose to keep silent and wait for him to say anything. I was just so scared, so scared that what I feel was just a false hope.

We took a picture together with Woffy, thinking that this cute stuffed toy is our baby. Haha. How funny!

Melchizedek : Musta si Woffy? Napainom mo nb ng milk?

Kayziah : Eto, natutulog na. Kaiinom lang ng milk, lakas nga dumede. Hahaha. Napagod yata.

Melchizedek : Haha. Sige. Pahinga na muna sya. :)

Kayziah : Oo nga. Hahaha. Ang cute! :) Thank you ulit dito ha.

Melchizedek : Welcome! Worth it naman di ba?

Kayziah : Oo naman! Ang saya kaya. :)

Melchizedek : Next time yung mas malaki naman.

Kayziah : Yes! Go for the bigger one!

Melchizedek : Para may kalaro na si Woffy.

Kayziah : Thank you Melchizedek! :)

Melchizedek : No problem ma'am. Nagustuhan mo ba?

Kayziah : Oo naman syemre! ;)

At natulog na naman akong may ngiti sa labi habang yakap yakap sa pagtulog si Woffy. Pakiramdam ko yakap ko na din siya. It was like a slice of heaven.

Pero alam niyo ba ang pakiramdam na kahit ganito na kami kaclose eh I still worry about what will happen next? I worry about the future. My mind can't help thinking about the past and the future. I just can't truly enjoy the present. I am a great stalker. Kahit hindi naman namin napag-uusapan ang mga past namin, I already know his past girlfriends. I was sure yung isa dun ay nurse. The other one, I don't know kung naging sila ba, if so, ECE din yun. Jamina Jarellano and Alliyah Padauan. The girl in his album "Star City with her" was Jamina. I saw his posts about her and how they exchanged "I love you's and I miss you's" in social media. And about Alliyah naman, no assurance they had affair but based on what they have been posting wayback college days, it claims that there was something between them. I know they were already in the past, pero I just can't help na magselos eh, knowing how he treated them in the past.