Never Been Said

Part 7

And I was speechless. Tama naman siya eh. What I felt during that time was to distance myself from him. I don't deserve that kind of answer. I deserve more than that. I deserved to be pursued. I deserve to be chased.

I was still not replying on any of his chats. Puro good morning, goodnight lang naman eh. Do I need to reply on that? Hindi na'ko nagreply. Not until he sent me an invitation of this shit game on facebook. Word with Friends. It was like a scrabble game online nga lang. Hindi ko pinansin nung una. Pero nung ikatlong invite na nya, that's when I responded. Nacurious din kasi ako dun sa laro. He was inviting me to play with his games. And I was fool enough para makipaglaro nga. And the communication started again with his shit games call "Word with Friends." Gusto mo ng laro? Okay sige. Maglaro tayo! Ang tanga ko lang ano, nakipaglaro ako kahit alam kong talo ako sa huli.

Three weeks after the message I sent and we still not seeing each other. He was updating me again his whereabouts, whether he was on his way back home or when he's still on his office or what.

April 28, 2018. I went to BDO at SM. I got my number para magdeposit sa account ko. 5028 was the number I got. 5003 palang sa counter, mejo malayo malayo pa ang ipaghihintay ko. When I was about to find a seat, my heart pounded so much when I saw him. Oo! Likod palang alam ko ng siya yun! He was wearing gray shirt that time. Inikot ko ang mata ko kung saan pa may bakanteng upuan. At pag sinuswerte ka nga naman, there were only two vacant seats. At alam niyo ba kung saan? One was beside him and the other one was behind him. Hindi ko alam kung uupo pa ba ako o tatayo na lang sa likod. I chose to stand. But later on, I found myself sitting behind him. Pero hindi pa rin ako mapakali. Alam kong kahit anong iwas ko magkikita at magkikita kami. Hindi naman ganun kaliit ang BDO. Pero kung magkita man kami, ayokong ako ang unang babati sa kanya. Kaya tumayo ulit ako at panandaliang tumayo sa likod. Dapat sa unahan nya ako umupo. Kunwari hindi ko siya napansin. I told myself. I breathe deeply as I walked slowly beside him as I made myself busy on my phone and then I sat on the only vacant seat in front of him. Literal na nanginginig ang tuhod ko. Hindi ko alam kung dahil masyadong malakas yung aircon or because I'm aware that he was just at my back. Bakit ako ganito? Imagine the message I've sent to him. His reply. And knowing that this was the first time we're gonna see each other again. Meeting him by chance was no joke. I was not prepared! For Pete's sake! I was not prepared to see him face to face! Hindi ako lumilingon sa likod. Malamang! Iniisip ko pa rin kung ano ba dapat maging reaction ko kung magkausap kami? I was so busy on preparing myself how to talk to him when my phone vibrated. It was him! My goodness!

Melchizedek : San ka ma'am?

Heto na nga. Nagtatanong na siya!!

Kayziah : SM.

Melchizedek : Lingon ka sa likod. :)

At tumigil yata ang mundo ko. I know you're just at my back! Dahan dahan akong lumingon likod.

"Hi ma'am!", he smiled.

"Uy! Anjan ka pala?", Sige Kayziah galingan mo pa ang pagkukunwari. I told myself as I acted na kunwari nagulat.

"Kaya pala familiar yung bag. Sabi ko 'teka parang kilala ko to ah.' Tiningnan ko yung relo mo saka yung rubber shoes mo sabi ko 'ay kilala ko nga ito'. Tama ako!", he explained. I was a little bit flattered naman kasi he recognized me pala kahit nakalikod ako. Including the watch we have. Ngumiti lang naman ako while he was explaining. "Anong number mo ma'am?", he asked.

"5028 eh.", I answered as I showed him my number. "Ikaw ba?", I asked.

"Sa'yo na lang tong number ko." Sagot naman nya habang inaabot sa'ken yung number nyang 5020.