𝐒𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐀𝐃𝐄.

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[ seomin ]

day checker : day 8th | august 17th

i'm curious.

why is seungcheol not yet here. he comes here before me.

"curious, huh?" i suddenly gasped looking at seungkwan who was at my couch.

"seungkwan? what are you doing here? you surprised me!" i held into my chest.

he stood up and chuckled. "seungcheol won't come."

oh.

"why?" i asked "i don't know. he just texted me." he showed me the conversation and i read it.

he didn't give any reason. what's the matter?

-

the whole day was boring. i walked in the park and sat on a bench. there was a guy with a black hoodie.

i didn't see his face clearly since he kept his hood up and was just staring at the sunset.

he didn't mind. i sighed and looked down.

i don't understand me, i don't understand myself.

i don't know my feelings, i don't know what i want.

all i know is that i'm happy to be with seungcheol. but he also broke my heart.

i promised myself not to fall for him again.

it's confusing. i don't really know how i feel for him.

there's a small part of me that still loves him, but i need to stay away.

the hooded guy beside me sighs. i looked at him with a frown. "you're thinking too loud, seomin." a deep voice said.

"w-who are you?" i asked.

he took off his hoodie and i was in shock. it has been a very long time.

-

he treated me dinner since he wanted to talk to me. the food came and he starts eating.

he's still the same. i cleared my throat.

"what do you want to talk about?" i asked. he looks up at me, "look, i brought you here to eat with me and we'll talk about it."

i sighed. "don't worry, it's about seungcheol."

i looked at him.

after eating, we walked outside and the night was in a beautiful shade of dark blue as the stars were scattered in the sky.

the bright half moon shined very beautiful.

"it's been a long time, seomin." wonwoo says.

i looked at him and smiled, "i know."

there was an awkward silence between us. "are you okay?" wonwoo frowns at me.

"what do you mean?" he asks "i mean, i chose seungcheol over you." he chuckles.

"i'm perfectly fine. i did realize that seungcheol really does love you." i looked at him.

"you were thinking about your own feelings a while ago, right?" i chuckled and nodded.

"if you don't know how you feel, observe yourself. well, i'm just gonna ask you."

we stopped walking as he stood in front of me.

"do you feel happy when you're around with seungcheol?" he asks and i nodded.

"does everything he does to you triggers your heart and you feel like you're gonna explode?" i nodded again.

"do you feel like he's the only man in your eyes?" i nodded again.

"you're basically still in love with him, dumbass." he walks away.

i fastened my pace, "but i can't love him!" wonwoo frowns at me.

"why the hell not?" he asks "he broke my heart." i replied.

"you're thirsty for seungcheol ever since he left. what's your point?" i sighed.

wonwoo does have a point.

i've been missing seungcheol so bad since he left.

"seomin," wonwoo calls and held my hands.

"you broke my heart too but i know it's for the better. yes, seungcheol did break your heart but he came back for you." he gives me a smile.

"the girl cancelled the wedding because seungcheol opened up to her, he opened up his true feelings about you. the girl cared about him so much, she had to let go."

so it was true.

seungcheol wasn't the one who cancelled it.

"make up your mind, seomin." i looked at wonwoo. "trust your heart, hear your heart out."

"i didn't know seungcheol would do that...for me." i murmured. wonwoo gave me a charming smile.

"where is he?" i asked.

"you know where he is."

-

"seungcheol," i called. he looked at me surprised.

i found him in our old university, at the basket ball court. he smiles at me, "what are you doing here?" he asks.

"i was worried because you didn't go to work." he smirks at me "i'm just gone for one day and you already miss me, huh?" he chuckles.

i love his smile, oh lord.

"were you here the whole time?" i asked him.

"of course not, love. i didn't have any schedule today so i decided not to go to work and just bring back the memories before." i smiled at him.

"thank you." i said "for what?" he asks.

"for bringing back my memories with you, and treasuring them." he smiles and walks closer to me.

"i'll always treasure those moments with you."

he pulled me closer to him and slowly brought our lips together.