𝐒𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐀𝐃𝐄.

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[ seomin ]

day checker: day 27 | september 5th

he did it again.

i lied my back down on my comfy bed.

"can you be my girlfriend?"

those words kept ringing in my head. i understand jeonghan's feelings for me but i just didn't feel it.

i feel like we're not perfect.

a knock on the door was heard. i stood up and opened the door sluggishly. it was seungkwan, bringing food.

i gave him a pout and he sighed. he entered as i closed the door. he placed the food down and faced at me.

"what's wrong, bub?" he asked with a pout. i sat down on my couch and sighed.

"i don't know what to feel anymore. i don't know if i'm in love or what. i'm so freaking confused." seungkwan sighed and sat beside me.

"you know, i haven't told you this but please don't freak out." i nodded at him as he took deep breaths.

"when i was in high school, i was bullied for being chubby."

"who the hell fought you? i'm gonna-" "seomin, i'm fine, that was before. i'm good now." he slowly put down my fist and i nodded.

"so yeah, i literally had no friends at all. then there was this one girl. she was so nice to me. she was my only friend and after a few years of hanging out with her... i fell in love."

i looked at seungkwan and smiled at him.

"i can remember vividly. she was so pretty, charming and i loved how she make me smile. she made me feel so appreciated and i feel like i'm not alone in this world."

his smile dropped, "but then, i also remember that, i was ready to confess my feelings. who knows? maybe she likes me too. i remember that i was really looking good that time."

seungkwan chuckled as he licked his lips and looked down at his fingers.

"i took a deep breath and confessed in front of her and told her 'i like you.'" seungkwan sighed. "i never knew i would be so in pain that day."

"i'm sorry, seungkwan. i understand your feelings but...i actually like someone else." seungkwan imitated the girl.

i looked down. "so what are you trying to say?" i asked to seungkwan. "what i'm trying to say is that, you need to know who you belong to. if it's for that jeonghan dude, go. if it's for seungcheol, go."

"i barely know jeonghan." i spoke "i just met him at college. while for seungcheol, i don't know. we were childhood friends."

"i don't care how long you've known these guys. as long as you know who you belong to." seungkwan gave me a smile and stood up.

"stand up, i bought food. let's eat."

i chuckled as i stood up.