unrequited | h.hyunjin

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it was two in the afternoon when i reached the venue of yeji's funeral. i was planning on arriving late and i did.

i can say that i'm avoiding them. i really wanted to avoid them specially since hyunjin will be there with them also.

it was a good thing no one was there when i arrived. i can talk to yeji peacefully.

i silently walked towards yeji's tomb and sat there staring at the words written on it.

hwang yeji
( may 26 **** - march 20 **** )

❝ hi. . . ❞ i'm speechless. i don't know what to say, ❝ i'm sorry for what happened to you. you didn't have to do this, you know? you can tell me your problem. . . i know we're not close nor friends but then it happened. i'm really sorry. i don't know if i was one of the reasons why you died. . . so i'm apologizing. it's late, i know. it's alright. i hope you're happy now there. is it peaceful there? i-i'm sorry, again if I talk too much. . . ❞

❝ so you did come, huh? ❞ i jolted in surprise and placed my hand over my chest; looking back just to see hyunjin standing not far away from me, eyes were narrowed like slits.

i stood straight and bowed down to him. my eyes were squeezed tight and mouth was quivering.

i thought everyone left already? where did he come from?! did he hear what i said?

❝ i-i'm sorry. i'll leave. i'm sorry for disturbing. ❞ he frowned and went to my side, sitting, ❝ sit down. ❞

i brought my head up and looked at him. when i saw him staring at me back, i immediately followed what he said.

there was a moment of awkward silence not until i heard him heaved out a deep and heavy sigh. ❝ i apologize for being rude to you. ❞

❝ n-no! i-i mean wh-why? you haven't done anything bad s-so no need t-to apologize. ❞ i bowed my head down due to embarrassment. i speak too much and i know he hates it when i talk too much.

he sighed, again. ❝ never mind. ❞

another moment of silence surrounded us. none of us would want to start a talk. he was looking at the sky and it was a chance for me to stare at him. even though his eyes were closed, i can see sadness. his face says it all.

i shivered when the cold wind hit my skin. i hugged myself in order for me to somehow make heat.

❝ here, ❞ he threw his jacket at my face, ❝ wear it. next time, don't forget to bring one. got it? ❞

i nodded and excitedly wore his jacket. his scent invaded my nose. my, i would like to know what detergent he uses.

❝ stop smelling my jacket. you seemed like a creepy stalker or something. ❞

❝ s-sorry. ❞ my cheeks burned furiously because of what he said. now i look like a creepy stalker to him.

❝ you say sorry almost all the time, don't you get tired saying it? ❞

❝ n-no. ❞ i stuttered and looked away.

❝ and why the fuck are you stammering? are you scared? ❞ we felt the cold wind brushed our skin. it was stronger than the last time, ❝ i'm sorry for cursing, yeji. ❞ he murmured.

❝ i'm just. . . intimidated by you. ❞

❝ intimidated? ❞ he unbelievably asked to himself while raising his brows at me, ❝ i am intimidating? really, huh? i'm shock. my friends often tease me so how can i be so intimidating? ❞

❝ they're your friends, obviously. they can do whatever they want. ❞ i remarked, ❝ and i can't even do any of those. ❞ i muttered bitterly.