Roman Montero and her

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Kalani's POV

"so what you gonna do now?" Eva inquired. I looked around trying to ground myself. I mean, I know that I convinced Eva that I will be ok, now I just need to convince myself that I was going to be ok.

" I don't know Eva. I guess I will have to take the pregnancy test and see what happens."

"Are you scared?" She asked, I softly chuckled.

" I would be lying if I said I wasn't. Now can we please go get my doughnuts, I am starving." I smiled, trying to light up the mood. But we both knew that our moods were far from being lit.

We got out of our dorm and we started our walk to Milano's café. When we got there, I bought 6 doughnuts with sprinkled cheese, a cheesecake, and a blueberry muffin.

"Wow, you sure you going to finish all of that?" Eva looked at me questionably.

"Yep," I said smiling.

"You are so weird right now and I am loving it." she smiled.

"Ok, whatever. Can we now please go to the pharmacy and get those pregnancies to test thingies?"

"Yeah sure," she answered nervously.

And between the two of us, I think she is more nervous for me than I was for myself. We got out of the café and started walking. We didn't talk to each other but we just let the fresh air run through our hair like nothing happened and I wasn't going to buy a pregnancy test.

It was a little soothing to walk at 2 a.m., knowing that everyone was sleeping and I could just walk and pretend that everything is ok. That I was ok. That I was still a virgin, and that I was still going to find my prince charming and get married and live happily ever after.

"You ok Kalani?" Eva asked, looking concerned while holding my hand, making me stop.

"No Eva, I am not." I huffed.

"Why?" she asked.

"Let's see, I am not a virgin anymore, I think I am pregnant and for some odd reason, I like cheese. And if you were me, well I think you would feel the same way." I snapped at her.

"Geez, shot me for trying to be nice. And for the record, I care about you too you know, and I have feelings and what you just said, that hurt." she let my hand go and she started walking, leaving me to feel bad.

"Eva I am sorry." I started running after her. I held her hand and I pulled her face close to me so she could look at me. "I am sorry," I repeated.

"look Kalani, your emotions are everywhere and that's ok. But please, try to keep yourself in check." She spoke softly.

"Okay." I sightly smiled. "Now can we get over this already?" I continued.

"Sure." We held our hands together and entered that pharmacy like we were ready to conquer the world.

When we got inside, my heart started beating faster. I tried walking but it was getting harder with each step I took and every second I got closer to the aisle. Eva saw the look on my face and hers just turned pale.

"You ok Kalani?" she pulled me close to her for a mini hug.

"Eva I am scared," I whispered.

This was far the scariest thing I have ever had to do. And to some people I know, that is crazy, but to me and my family, it isn't. Having a baby should be something that I am happy about, but I am not. Well, I am not sure that I am having one but, it scares the life out of me.

How will I take care of a baby? What will that rude idiot of a guy say when I tell him that he is a father? Will he accept responsibility? What will my parents say?

All these questions were not helping me as I got closer to those pregnancy tests. I just stopped walking and I just stood there and I started crying and I repeated, "I am so scared Eva."

Eva pulled me into a hug. She hugged me like it was the only thing that could ever matter. She hugged me as if the world depended on it.

"I know. I am scared too but you gonna be ok," she whispered as she continued to caress me.

"You gonna be ok," she repeated. And for those milliseconds, I chose to believe that was true.

That I was going to be ok and that if I had a baby, my life would continue and I would still be the same person I was before but with just another human to care off.

But when I thought of that, the thought of being pregnant, and having another human to take care of freaked me out. I couldn't take care of myself at times, how was I to take care of a baby? Oh goodness. I just cried some more.

"Shhhhh, we gonna figure something out," Eva spoke. And I could hear it in her voice that she was crying too.

"I promise Kalani, we are going to get through all of this. And if that twat don't wanna take responsibility, I will be the father of your child." She wiped my tears.

"Really?" I looked at her and my heart soared. The thought of doing this all alone made me go insane.

"Yes. I may not be male, but it will be like a second mother. But way cooler." I smiled with my tears rolling down my face.

"There is that million-dollar smile." She said while wiping my tears. She then took my face into her hands so I could look at her.

"I will do everything in my power to ensure that kid is educated and that she has a lot of toys to play with." She continued.

"How can you be sure it's a girl?" I looked at her curiously.

"Trust me, it's a girl." I just laughed. And it felt really good.

"And as I was saying, I will provide her with everything that she will ever need. I will be her friend when she doesn't have any and I will always be there to wipe her tears when she cries like being with her mother." I smiled.

"Kalani, I will not let you do this alone. I will be there for every checkup and every scan and I will be there when you look big and swollen and like a balloon." I hit her shoulder.

"Don't say that. I won't be big." I pouted.

" I know." She smiled. " But I will be there regardless. I will walk with you at 2 a.m. so you can get your crazy cravings and I will be there when you bring this little one to life. And you know what, I will love her as my own."

"Let's not get ahead of ourselves. I am not even sure that I am pregnant. " I said, trying to lighten up the mood.

"I know. But still, I want you to know that I got you, girl. Always. I got you." I just hugged her like I was dying, and it felt like I was because I knew that after this, I wasn't my own Kalani anymore. There was a big possibility that I was someone's mom.

Someone was going to rely on me to be their pillar of strength, their friend, doctor, therapist, cook, and storyteller. Things that I knew nothing about.

But with Eva on my side, it felt like I could take all of that. With its craziness and all, I could still be the best mom, if it came to that point.