I started these hella young all of them are good but for the better ones start at " Im sorry *Odell Beckham*" But like I said all of them are good the earlier ones have more typos and what not ........the ones towards the end of the book been lit t...
QUICK NOTE BEFORE READING the beginning was me trying to give you a clear background story so you know what going on if you don't like that please tell me
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Kourtney pov.
In my opinion, I feel that people should say straight up what they want out of any relationship at the very beginning of that relationship. If you are looking for no strings attached sex SAY THAT if you are looking for a serious relationship, SAY THAT if you want to multi-date for a while but EVENTUALLY settle down SAY THAT SHIT man. If you don't say anything, the people in the relationship don't know any boundaries until they've already crossed it. This is something I feel strongly about because I've been in situations where a guy and I were out here doing whatever, and I think that's my boyfriend but im just one of many to him. That being said when I met Diggy and he took me out for our first date, and it was something he brought up it made me feel relax and like I could trust him even though it wasn't what I initially had in mind I was willing to try it if it meant I could be with him. On this date, I vividly remember him say, " I don't want a relationship I'm just out her living right now." and before I had thought it through clearly I said. "yeah that's cool with me." people who know me know that I've always been a relationship type of girl. I tried to live my life too and gain experience, but I feel guilty, or I fall in love, so I'm loyal by default. However, it was something different about this set up because he was honest in the beginning I knew he wasn't going to hide anything in the future he was always going to be straight up and that made me down for the ride. Which leads us to now I've been accustomed to not having Diggy as my boyfriend. This setup was like having a relationship with none of the negative aspects I always had a dinner date if him I were in the same city, he fucks me better than anybody else I've been with, we go on trips and just have fun, and it's been great. Of course, it's been times when I felt like I was catching feelings, but when that happens, I separate myself for a while, and then I'm fine again. He's always been firm on not being in a relationship. So tell me why lately he's been trying to act like a boyfriend? We have mutual friends who know nothing about us having sex, and they've been telling me that he's "dropping hoes ... he must have a girlfriend ... did he say anything to you" hearing that enough made me realize that even when you do set up the relationship, in the beginning, you still have to check in every once in a while to make sure you two are on the same page and that's precisely what I'm about to do he's on his way over now.
No POV
Diggy just walked in they hug she locks the door and then they go to her den sitting on the couch. The tension was thick, to say the least after not seeing him for a while she saw the love in his eyes which almost made her fall and that's the issue. "Did you want anything to drink or something?" That's the southern girl in her she'll always offer a beverage when someone walks into her house. But she's also feeling uneasy about this conversation now. The way he looked at her... he never did that before. "Nah I'm good" "alright bet we need to talk" "about?" he scrunched his face up at her like she was gonna be on some bullshit... never that "So I've been thinking maybe we should talk about what this is again. Because it has been a year, a great year and we've gotten comfortable and we care for each other deeply but we're not in a relationship which I'm still fine with that honestly. I feel like this friendship is important to me and I love how we are with each other. so yeah" he looked confused probably because her explanation of this talk just exposed the fact that her feelings are mixed about the situation. Meaning nothing she said really had meaning or made sense. "So you said all that to say what? cause it doesn't sound like you want to end it or start a relationship and as far as I'm concerned we've been fine with no labels and both of us knowing excatly what this is" he's so in denial. "Have WE or have I?" "What--" she cuts him off he's still looking confused "okay look all I'm saying is you've been lowkey trying to do boyfriend shit for last few months so yes I'M very aware of what this is but do you still know what this is and are you okay with that" his whole body language changed he stood up staring down at her she turns and faces him she sees the hurt in his eyes which makes her hurt just as much "I don't understand how you don't feel anything for me, not even a little bit? all that we shared... all that we've done... all that we do and you can honestly say you don't want me? half as much as I want you? that makes no sense it's been a year for fuck's sake." "You were the one not me you specifically said you did not want a relationship so that's what I've based this whole thing off of you not wanting me to be your girlfriend so the minute you started to feel different you should've said something but you didn't so let's not try and blame this on me. " She stands up because she feels attacked she doesn't want to seem heartless but it was his fault. "so what now?""I wanted to see how you were feeling clearly I got an answer and if---" he cuts her off "No hush *she rolls her eyes* I get that this was never supposed to evolve but it clearly did but you're so damaged that you think I'm going to hurt you when all U want to do is love you from the bottom of my heart truly." "first of all, I'm not damaged secondly whats the real reason behind this why me? why now?" Here is the fucked up chapter....ill try and write another one for dig maybe in the same situation idk 🤷♀️🏾
