Helooo... WWAT is over... :'( but also excited for OTRAT :')
Me and Zayn walk to the Language building, we chat about some stupid things. Why do you color your hair? What do you like? And stuffs. I never felt this.. free, with anyone except my brother, Calvin
"I guess, we're here" He says, i tightened my jacket, and nodded. I search for Lilian, but she's no where to be found. I grab his hand and look at his watch. It's 3 o'clock. Crap! "She must be go to that class without me" I grown and let go of Zayns arm, Great! I'm late, and i cant find the class "What class?" Zayn ask, putting both of his hand ms on his side jeans pockets. "Uh, English" I answer, looking at him. "Well, good for you Ms. Rivers, i know where that place is" He smiles, giving me a wink. I rolled my eyes at him, and he laughs. "Could you-uh.." I'm embarrased, he shows me this whole god damned collage. His like my bodyguard, taking me to places. "Yeah sure, noprob" He shrugs, and leads me the way. Again.
We walked inside of the building, and it is.. HUGEEE! This is maybe the biggest one yet. The walls are painted brown-Gold, some couchs, flowers on every corner, another hall, it's looks fancy.
"C'mon, i bet you're already late" Zayn smiles, and i nodded. We walk to a hall, the walls are painted dark red, some photographs, quotes, and more. It's just magnificent! We walk a little more further, and stopped at a dark brown wooden door. We stopped, and i open the door. There is no teacher. I search for Lilian, and i saw her sitting on the black wooden chair, and the next of her is an empty chair. I bet that's for me. "Thank god" i sigh in reliefe. "There's no teacher is there?" Zayn crossed his hands on his chest. I nodded, slipping my hair to the back of my ear. "Yeah i know, i used to be on this class, but not anymore" Zayn shrugs. "Why?" I ask. Damned Amanda, you should leave this boy alone! You cannot trust him! What if he broke you? What if he ruinned you? My inner mind says. My inner mind is right. I cant let him come in. I cannot trust anyone! I cant! What if he, or anyone break my trust? What if he leaves me?. I shook my head, and take a deep sigh. "Amanda, You okay?" Zayn asks, putting both of his hands in his sides. "Y-yeah, I-i cant, i'm sorry. I need to go" I look at him, and look at the floor. "W-what?" He asks. "I-i just. I have to go" I refused to look at him, and step inside of the room. I dont look back, because i'm afraid of hurting anyone. Especially me. I walk to Lilian's chair, and she stood up. "Where have you been?" Lilian ask, sitting on the other empty chair next to me. "I was wit-Asleep" i said, refusing to tell her the truth. She narrowed her eyes, and open her mouth to say something. But cancelled when an old man came to the class. "Good morning" He says. I think he is 30-35. "Morning" everyone says and the class starts. Lilian looked at me and mouthed 'Talk about it later' i nodded, and her eyes are locked at the class. Is it okay to tell her? I barely know her! I took a big breath, and focus on the class.
--1 hour later--
The bell rangs, and we all went out from the class. The class is kinda boring, he always talks about something not so important. "Wanna go to the Canteen?" Lilian tap my shoulder. "Uh-i dont feel really hungry" i refused. What i said to her is almost true, but the truth is. I dont want to meet Zayn.
"C'mon! It's only 4 p.m and you need to eat, what if you get sick or something?" Lilian pouted, and stand in front of me, making me to stop from walking. "Please.." She gave me her cupcake face. I bit my lips from laughing at her. Seriously it was weird! Her hands are on her chin, her eyes are pupping, her mouth is shaking, it's hillarious. "Fine" i grown. "Okay, lets go" She grab my arm, and we ran to the canteen
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Lilian opens the canteen door, and i rush to sit on our usual table, i sat right next to Harry. "Wow, you're in rush" Lilian took a sit next to me. "Nice to 'see' you, Amanda" i smack Harry's arm, and he laughs. I crossed my arm on the top of the table. "Amanda, can i ask you something?" One of the Boy in the table ask. His hair is kinda bold, but not bold. Kinda of punk way. "Yeah?" I lift my head up at him. "What are you doing with Zayn?" He asked. I look down at my feet, trying to figure out what should i say. "W-what?" I ask. Narrowing my eyes at him. "I saw you on the park with him" "oh that, yeah, we are just talking" i shrug. "Liam, they are just friends" The girl who is sitting between Liam and Harry says. "Yeah i know, i'm just telling her to be careful" he shrugs. Becareful? What does that supposed to mean? I've been told 'becareful' from Lilian, now him? What's up with Zayn actually???
I dont want to make drama so i just nodded. But my head is still filling with Zayn? Becareful? Why? Is there something about him that i shouldnt know? Is it about Drugs? Or... i shook my head from my crazy thoughts and stood up. I need some ice cream. "I want to buy ice cream" i tell them, and they all nodded. I walk to the American foods line, and waited.
I want to forget about Zayn, but there is something about him that i really want to know. What's with the becareful? Why does everytime his hand touches mine, i got shivered? "Next" The women says, i shook my head from my thoughts again. And walk to the cashier. "Uh- Just Ice Cream, the flavour is Coffee" she nodded and go prepared my food. "Do you always buys Ice Creams?" I jumped when i heard him. I turn around and saw him, standing there with that big oh Smile. I just rolled my eyes, and turn my back at him again, and waited for my ice cream. "You know there's lots of foods, and you just bought this?" My gosh.... "seriously, look around you Amanda, there's a lo-" "Could you shut up?" I snapped at him. I swear! This kid doesnt know how to shut him self!
"Uh- sometimes" he shrugs and gave me those big innocent smile again. "You annoys me like hell" I tell him. "You look adorable when i annoys you, that's why i always annoys you" My body froze when i heard that. "Here you go" The lady gives me the Ice cream, and i left. Walking to my table, i turn around and Zayn is still behind me. "Could you just go?" I asked, turning around to zayn. While, Eating a spoon of my delicious Ice Cream. "Why? I want to hang out with you" Zayn smiles, giving me a smirk. "Well, i dont want to. So..." I snapped. Eating another scoop of Ice Cream. "But i want to" Zayn shrugs. I look at the time and it's 4:30 p.m i turn around to look at Lilian, and they all are staring at the both of us. Well, almost all people in the cafeteria actually. "But i dont" I eat another ice cream. "I do" "i dont" i do" "I dont" "i-" "Fine! Damned! You are such a pain!" I grown. He chuckles and smiles. I take a look to Lilian again and they all are still staring at the both of us. Why aare they keep doing that? Maybe it's because the 'Becareful' stuffs. "You okay, amanda?" And it hit me. I cant hang out with him. Not him, not Lilian,not anyone. I dont want getting hurt once more. I dont...
"Amanda?" Zayn asks, his eyes are full with concern. "I-i.. i cant, I-i have to go" I shove Zayn away and ran to my room. I heard someone calling my name but i didnt stop. I kept running to my Room. I ran to the stairs, and opening the room. I close the door, and jump to the bed. "Ugh..." i grown. Why i have to be this stupid! I already swear i will never have a relationship. Not Boyfrined or even Friends. I sit up and hugged my legs. I hid my face on legs. And the memories of Him come to my mind. How could he do this to me?
Because of him, my life has turned up like this.
I dont know how to safe my self from the memories that haunted me every night, in my dreams, on my day...
A tear fall down on my cheek "Amanda?" Lilian's voice makes me jumped. I quickly erased my tear and looked up at her
"What happend? Why are you crying?" She asks. "W-what? I'm not crying" I shook my head, and let go of my legs. "Amanda, i-" "Really,i'm okay" i cut her off. Her eyes seems so desperate for me, she really cares about me. But, i'm just not ready to tell her about him... I'm just not ready.
Hiii! Sorry for that... Amanda is not ready to tell Lilian.. but i think you'll like the next capt.. :D -meggie
