Crushed(TodoDeku) (KiriBaku)

Chapter Sixteen

Lunch. Everything seemed so normal, and well, technically, it was, everything seemed...off. Todoroki and Izuku would often sneak looks at each other, just to make sure the other was still there. They contemplated telling the others, but decided to wait to ask Kacchan first. Izuku could hear people at his lunch table, and listened just enough to know what they were talking about, but he was focused on Todoroki's face. Todoroki was sitting across from him, and he was focused on something, or nothing. He was staring in front of him, his fork in hand, midway through use. He seemed dazed, thinking about something Izuku wasn't sure of. He couldn't figure out what the look on Todoroki's face was.
"Sho? Sho-o? Anyone there?" Izuku waved a hand in front of Todoroki's face.
"Huh? Oh, uh, sorry, Izu." Todoroki snapped out of whatever daze he was in, and looked down at the table.
"Are you alright?"
"Huh? Oh, uh, me? Yeah, I'm fine." Todoroki was still looking down at the table, his face undecipherable.
"Sho, what's wrong?" Izuku knew when Todoroki was lying.
"I told you, n-nothing." Izuku heard Todoroki's voice crack a little.
"Sho..."
"I-
"I-I-have to use the bathroom." Todoroki got up and jogged out of the lunchroom, Izuku going after him.
"Sho! Sho! Wait up! Hey!" Izuku got close to him, and turned him around. Todoroki had tears down his face.
"Sho!"
Todoroki pulled Izuku's hand from his shoulder, wiped his face and turned away. "I'm fine-"
"You're not fine! You're not fine." Izuku tried to to turn Todoroki around again, but he was moving to fast.
"Please, Izuku, I'm fine."
"Sho, the bathrooms aren't even this way!" Izuku was still following behind Todoroki, though kept walking faster.
"I know, I'm going to my dorm. Go back to class, I don't want you getting in trouble."
Izuku was next to Todoroki, yet he was still looking at the ground.
"No! I can't leave you like this!"
"Please, Izuku, I-I'm Fine."
"Sho, you're crying! You're not fine!"
Todoroki wiped his face with his hands and sniffled.
"I-I'm not crying..."
Izuku grabbed Todoroki's hand and spun him around.
"Sho! Please.."
"Izu..." Todoroki held his gaze to the floor, as he felt Izuku rub his cheek.
"Hey, you can talk to me!"
Todoroki crumpled against the wall and started crying.
"It's just that -that I feel like if I, If I could have been stronger, or-or protected you, all of-of this, wouldn't- have happened. I-I could have protected you, and, and could have helped Bakugo.." Todoroki spoke fast, and rambled a bit. Izuku could feel Todoroki's deep breathing, and when his breathing hitched, the stopping and restarting of his breaths.
"Sho, you did everything you could-"
"But I could have been stronger!" Todoroki practically yelled.
"I could have been stronger..."
Izuku didn't know what to say, he just let Todoroki cry into his shoulder.
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They waited until the end of lunch to head back, and pretended like everything was okay. They met up with Kirishima and Bakugo after school, in Bakugo's dorm.
"H-hey guys! How was your day?" Izuku asked, walking in with Todoroki. Bakugo smirked at Kirishima, and Kirishima turned red as his hair.
"G-great Midoriya! What about you?"
"Well, we were wondering if we could tell people about...Well, y'know..."
"No." Bakugo got up and walked in front of Todoroki and Izuku.
"I don't need peoples sympathy, I don't need people's opinions. So no."
Izuku nodded and Todoroki just stared at Bakugo.
"The hell are you looking at? Got a problem Icy Hot?"
"Nothing, Bakugo. And I'd advise you calm down." Todoroki looked at one of Bakugo's bandages. "Wouldn't want to hurt yourself more."
Bakugo angrily sat down with a small "Tch." And an eye roll.
"So Kacchan, are you coming to school tomorrow? People were asking about you and I just said you'd be back soon."
"Yeah, I don't wanna get my ass chewed by Aizawa more that I already have." Bakugo laughed a little "If I skipped again I would definitely be suspended..Anyway, you two should head to your dorms. Aizawa's coming to check on me and we're not even supposed to be in the same room, remember?"
"Right, Yeah! S-See you guys later, I guess!" Izuku only realized then that he was shaking.
"See you." Todoroki took Izuku's hand and they walked out the door.
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"What's wrong? You're cold and shaking." Todoroki was gripping tightly onto Izuku's hand with his left side, yet he was still cold.
"Hm? O-oh, I'm -f-Fine!"
"No, you're shivering." Todoroki looked Izuku in the eye. "What's up?"
"I-I don't know, I-I've just been so nervous, and-and, I just can't focus- on-on anything- and I- I-"
"Izu! You're rambling again. It's fine, nothings going to happen. We have it all handled." Todoroki smiled at him and squeezed his hand. Izuku was still cold, and shaking, but lesser.
"Hey, you know I love you, right?"
"Of course." Izuku looked at the ground and tried not to to cry, again. Everything in his life seemed so confused now. He and Bakugo were never 'friends', but they were never enemies, either. But when Todoroki was attacked, everything was different. And then the events from the previous night.  Izuku didn't know whether to be mad, or sad, or be  comforting. His emotions were too confusing, and too much to explain.
"Of course."