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all this began with a
message that i will
give no context to
<"you really do have this
image of me as cruel
person huh no
matter what i do">
▹ ⌜ 一 wattpad ┆ message board ⌟
maybe i was
not just
referring to
what had just
been said
i know you're
smart enough to
connect the dots
but you saw specks
and not the lines
that we used to
draw together
however, that was not
merely a wound
it was a knife
driven further into
the wound
slowly by your
very hands
it was as if you
didn't recognize
what harm it
would bring
a joke, you labelled it
a jab, it felt like
do you know that
sometimes when
i get 'hurt'
'because of you'
it's indirect ?
you're everywhere
but i never
see you in person
i can't escape you
and here is why
you came to know
that the social world
became more of my life
than the physical one
before my eyes
have you forgotten
that about me already?
pity.
but i see you
and i see you
and i see you
i see you
in tags
in stories
in videos
in my highlights ( my fault )
in the 'recent activity'
in profile pictures
in 'recent likers'
i see you in k-pop
dance covers
i see you in jess
and gabe's pictures
i see you when i
follow the ulzzang
tag and end up scrolling
through pictures of pretty asians
i see you in
gyungstudio's pieces
of art
i see you in
memezar's posts
i see you in
pubity's jokes
i see you in
wholesome
meme pages
i see you in really
pretty pictorials
that gemma chan posts
i see you in the
dceu account
that i follow whenever
they post gal gadot
i see you in quotes
from six of crows
that i see on bookstagrams
i see you in white
pillows
in +'s and x's
that spell out
this k-pop boy
group's name ( "txt" )
( ref. to y(our) pillow,
son, dear multiply )
i see you in those
piano tiles ads on
the instagram stories
i see you in
my auto-correct
in niche-memes
where they'd feature
thrasher jumpers
in thr adiddas account
in mentions of
bohemian rhapsody
on netflix page
when they post
my favorite shows and films
i see you in
'to all the boys' updates
you shaking your head
to those minimalist
drink prep videos
in the sungjot vids
i thought were cure
in the mbti / 16
personalities test website
in the pottermore page
arguing that you
should not be put
into slytherin
in my post inspo
collection that i was building
to let you explore one day
i see you the moment
i open the youtube app
in the playlists we made
for each other
in 'weekly idol' and
variety shows that
guests k-idols
in the bad boy mv
in the dna, mic drop
and fake love mv
im kpop comebacks
that i would've
gushed and critiqued
to you about
i see you in places
that i knew
were possible
i just didn't know
i would see you
there and feel
so 'sad'
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