WAVES OF LOVE ― Jenkook

《14》

"I'm so proud of you!" Jungkook's father said as he came into their house with a smiley face. he looked everywhere in the house for the presence of his mother after giving his father a hug. 

the puff under his eyes tense down a little bit, "dad, where's mom? is she home?" he asked, wanting to know. but there was no reply from his father as he did nothing but put away his smile for the sudden questions.

Jungkook looked behind him and up the stairs, maybe she was in her room, he thought as he happily walks two step past his father.

"your mother is in the hospital." his father voiced as he felt his body weaken with the sudden news. he turned back to face his father in worried. "why?" he said with a pair of furrowed eyebrows, through a confused tone of voice. he shake his head side to side, "no.. you're lying to me, aren't you?" he asked with a bit of anger on why didn't his father call to tell him about this. 

"she's been having a hard time sleeping and so she's at the hospital for treatment now" his father explained as tears formed in both of their eyes. if they blink, their tears falls. with his heart rushing in tension, he flew out the door and ran down the street to the hospital. 

he ran fast as his eyes became dried and his breath became heavy. life seemed cruel to him. after each time he finds a good thing to be happy about, life takes another thing that he loves away. this waves of love seemed as if it can kill him tonight. this process of give and take was putting his mind into frustrations as the passion that lives within him can make him happy but can also destroy him alive. 

was he being too selfish of keeping the unreachable dreams in his heart and let go of the reachable things that have brought him happiness. 

after he reached the hospital, the clouds was already turning dark as it roars out and cries, setting the world with heavy raindrops that stream down as water. he finished asking for his mother's room, walked up to that level, and found the room that was put far into the corner of the hall, just like how his mother would want to stay away from him. 

he walked in while his mother was asleep, resting from the treatment she have received. "mom" he cried while kneeling down on the hard cement ground. he took a hold of her fragile and old hand. her hand have became so thin that it was light and small to hold. each time he took a breath from his crying, the feeling of shame, sorrow, and afraid came pouring out onto the cold ground that he kneels in front. 

he knew this wasn't just stress from having a hard time sleeping, she was in more pain and health conditions than she looks. this was the reason why she keep pushing Jungkook to work harder and gain higher wages. because when the old self of her is gone, she doesn't want to see him suffer or go through the same as how she was. 

his mother pushed him away to live by himself because she didn't want him to see her suffer from this health conditions of her that gets worst as each day passes by. each visits she pays, she faked to look healthy because of a son, whom she doesn't want to see in despair.

"mom, are you okay?" these were the only words that came out from him as he cries with the rain that was still heavy from the outside. 

"I'm..okay" she replied in a whisper to which he heard and quickly looked up at her. she removed her hand from the bed and pat his head, burshing his hair back. he moved in closer and put his head onto her small waist while holding her other hand. "I'm sorry" he whisper back again and again until he fell asleep from the overwhelming of sleepless night.

his mother gained teary eyes just from hearing the cries of her only son. "you went through so much" she whisper to the sleeping Jungkook, who slept so carelessly, "you looked so happy today on TV.. for a moment, I thought you were someone else since I've always denied your happiness" she said with a tight chest pain that caused her to groan in pain, waking him up.