12 Ways To Die

How to Die: 5

Chapter 5

No time for grieving

Demi

After what happened lahat kami ay nakatanggap nanaman ng mensahe, just minutes after Chris died infront of our eyes. Nakakalungkot isipin na may taong natutuwa sa pagluluksa namin. He died in front of us, while we watch not knowing what to do.

Tragedy #1
Failure to obviate

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I clutched my phone hard and threw it across my room. Pagtapos ng nangyari agad na nagtawag ng pulis si Mark at Luke at agad namang rumesponde ang mga ito. Nadatnan nilang patay si Chris habang mulat ang mata samantalang kami ay nag iiyakan sa isang tabi. Hindi pa nakakalipas ang isang oras ay dinala na naman kami sa interrogation room para itanong ang mga nangyari.

I was in shock so I refused to be interrogated. Mabuti at hindi na nila ako pinilit at nirespeto nalang ang aking desisyon. Hindi ko pa nga halos matanggap na wala na ang matalik kong kaibigan, tapos tatanungin nila ako tungkol sa pagkamatay niya? I just can't bring myself to do it. I don't even think they can get valuable information from me with my current state of mind.

To say that I'm heart broken by what happened is an understatement and I can't stress that enough. I am devastated to the extent of my breaking point. I felt numb. I don't know where to start. I don't know what to do. I'm fucking lost.

I'm damned from the very start, fucked up even. My parents weren't perfect. In fact, they did a lot of mistakes when I was young that caused us to leave, stow away from civilization and settle in this forgotten city. Away from all the controversy and away from the people whom my parents did wrong. Dahil dito nilayuan ako ng lahat. My classmates and the kids in our neighborhood didn't want to be associated with me. All of them pushed me away. All except for Chris. When the whole world cast me away, he stayed.

He proved them wrong. He showed them that what my parents did shouldn't be the basis of my character. And that's when I met his friends. In that moment, somehow, we knew, we all have something in common. We are all wrongly judged by society. A bunch of outcasts, thrown out by the world.

When we were young, up until now, Chris was the only one I can lean on. Sure, I have Matthew, and our friends but no one can compare to Chris. Iba pa rin ang comfort na nabibigay ng matalik na kaibigang tukad niya. He's all that I have. Tuwing wala ang mga magulang ko, tuwing nararamdaman ko na parang mag isa nalang ako, at noong lahat ay tinalikuran ako, Chris is the only one who remained. When everybody was pushing me away, Chris was there holding out a hand for me to reach and a smile to comfort me.