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Nights Like This

A/N : so I just want to start by saying that this is an LGBTQ one shot. It will be a nedwin fic, mainly bc they're my favs. This is an AU and is not to be taken seriously outside of this book. If you're homophobic you should probably stop reading right at this very moment here. Happy Pride month bitches!!  🌈

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  Nick fucked up, typical him behavior if you asked anyone remotely close to him,  but now as he sat in his Jeep on the side of the road angrily rereading the text message he received from edwin he knew there wasn't a way to fix this mess.

When this thing with Edwin started nick was at his lowest, his current relationship with jennifer was crumbling from beneath him and he felt like his entire world was falling apart, so he did what anyone else would do, he turned to his best friend, except where he was trying to find a shoulder to lean on and a few pick me ups he ended up finding something so much more.

What he had with Edwin was staggering, if he had to use a word to describe it. It took his breath away and knocked him off his feet. But that wasn't enough for him to be one hundred percent committed to a relationship with Edwin even though all the signs for a great steady relationship were there.

He sat in the Jeep thinking back to how it all started, the very beginning of the best and worst day of his life.

Jennifer was tripping again, when she got like this nick wanted to scream. They were supposed to be going to dinner with her family but he didn't want to attend if her brother was going to be present which sent jasmine on a spiral.

"He's my brother dumbass and it's a family dinner of course he's going to be there" she threw her hands up frustrated and he ignored her, he retook his spot on his bed and started to undo his shoes "what are you doing?" She questioned him "nick I swear to god don't start this with me today"

"I told you I wouldn't go if he was there, I'm not going to spend an hour or two having your brother berate me in front of your family" he didn't think he was being unreasonable, Jonah had it out for him the first day they met, he's always been upset that his sister was dating a white boy.

"Stop being a bitch" Jennifer said which was a typical reaction for her, anytime nick didn't appease to her she would start trying to purposely get him out of character. "You're acting like a little ass girl, Jayla has more balls than you and she's six"

Nick once again ignored her and her comments to fire him up and instead of continuing to take his shoes off he tucked the laces into the sides and grabbed his car keys "I'm not dealing with your bitchy ass bullshit today jen" he left the house and took off towards the only place he knew could clear his head.

When he arrived at edwins doorstep he didn't even have to knock his best friend immediately opened the door as soon as he spotted him walking up the walkway.

"Let me guess Jennifer being a b word again?" Edwin frowned at the sour look his friend had displayed on his face, he never understood why nick let her get under his skin like that, it broke his heart always seeing his friend look like his heart had been curb stomped.

He had a slight or not so slight (if you asked his brother Zion) crush on nick and has had it ever since he came out to him in eleventh grade.

"She's just so frustrating sometimes and she likes to rile me up" nick began ranting as soon as edwin shut his front door "and I don't know why I put up with it, I'm not even sure I love her anymore"

edwins mind started reeling at nicks sudden revelation but before he could make a comment about how it's about time he put that relationship behind him he noticed the blurry mess of nicks eyes and knew his best friend was holding back tears. He pulled him into a tight hug, his head fit perfectly on his shoulder and he comforted him. Nick pulled back looking at edwin and just starring at him for a minute, he kept looking him in the eyes not even noticing that he was moving his face forward. When their lips connected it caught edwin off guard he never expected a move like that from nick and as much as he knew he shouldn't engage and stop his emotionally vulnerable friend he kissed back.

The kiss got heated quickly, both of them exploring each other's mouths and grinding against each other, everything around them forgotten as they both seek out the pleasure of the other. Once that pleasure was met, they laid there foreheads against each other breathing heavily. The adrenaline slowly started to wear off and reality was quickly setting in. Nick jumped up from atop edwin and just stood there looking down at his best friend.

"Nick" Edwin said slowly as he stood up too "it's okay"

not gay, "I'm not gay" I was the only thing that ran through nicks head, he was having an internal battle with himself based off of what just happened and what he's told himself since he was twelve.

"I'm going to go" he said, Edwin couldn't say much; he just nodded. He wanted to stop him to tell him they needed to talk about what the hell just happened but confronting a vulnerable nick was always a bad mood, his first defense mechanism was anger and angry nick was the last thing edwin wanted to deal with.

That had been three weeks ago, nick hadn't seen or spoken to edwin since. Edwin tried to call the entire first week, he sent messages and once even stopped off at his job where he had his coworker Austin tell edwin he was busy.

His relationship with Jennifer continued to spiral but he was determined to fix it, the guilt of cheating eating at him. He talked her into couples counseling and she agreed, they started last week.

When edwin found out that nick was planning to make his relationship with Jennifer work he understood. He knew that nicks heart would always belong somewhere else but that knowledge didn't stop him from hurting. He was in love with a boy he couldn't have and it hurt like hell.

Nick missed edwin, Edwin was always a thought at the back of his mind. He often thought about reaching out to him, explaining to him what was going on through his head knowing that edwin would be able to make sense of it. Nick had pushed the kiss from that night as far as possible to the back of his mind, he ignored the nagging feeling of want he got whenever he thought about edwin. He constantly repeated to himself that he wasn't gay, he didn't like men. He made sure he extended that to edwin as well even without communicating with him. He posted him and Jennifer all over his social media's, he was basically throwing the relationship into edwins face.

Edwin wasn't dumb he knew what nick was doing and instead of having his heartbreak thrown in his face he decided to block nick, on social media and out of his life. He sent nick one last good bye message and got in his car and started towards s the airport. He knew he was running away but he didn't care.

Edwin
We've been best friends for six years, and I'll always cherish those years but I can't sit back and watch you throw your relationship in my face as some form of punishment for the kiss that you initiated, fuck you nick. I'm going to stay with Zion in Toronto for awhile I wish you and Jennifer the best.
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Whew okay this is part one of Nights Like this. I'm sorry about typos I didn't proofread, I'll edit later. Hope you all enjoyed.