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Nights like this 2

"Reminiscing, Sippin, missing ya...."

Nick was lost, his life had been flipped upside down, he lost his best friend and was currently fighting for a relationship he didn't even want to be in.

It was always so hard for him to admit his feelings for edwin, they were always there even back in high school when edwin first came out, he remembered being jealous of how open his friend could be about his sexuality and wishing he could be the same. He remembers wanting to tell edwin that he liked him, that when they were at his house watching movies and edwin would lay his head on his lap so that he could rub his hands through his curls untangling then he was at his happiest. But he shut that part of him off, he knew that if he admitted to being gay then he wouldn't be seen the same on the football field, no football meant no scholarship, no scholarship meant no school since he came from a stable but lower class home.

He told himself over and over it was just a phase, he didn't like men and more specifically he didn't like edwin. Now years later he wishes he could go back in time and slap his younger self. He liked Edwin a lot, and now that edwin was gone out of his life he wasn't sure how to cope, he shut himself out from the world and tried his best to gather his thoughts on edwin, on Jennifer and on his sexuality.

Jennifer knew something was up with nick she just couldn't pinpoint the issue, she sat and watched him sigh heavily into a pillow and she finally decided to get to the bottom of whatever was happening with her boyfriend.

"Baby" she tapped him but to no avail. "NICK"
he groaned lifted his head up and turned to face her.

"Yes Jen how can I help you" he sarcastically replied

"No need to be an asshole Nicholas, I'm just trying to see if you're okay"

"No, no I'm not" he sat up and turned towards her, she deserved to know the truth. "This isn't working anymore and quite frankly I'm not sure it was ever working, you're an amazing woman, you're an even better gf and someone would be happy to be with you but I'm not that someone this relationship has made me miserable and I've been miserable the entirety of it, I don't want to be miserable anymore I deserve to be with someone who makes me happy and you deserve someone who can love you unconditionally love"

"So you're breaking up with me?" He could see the anger flashing across her face "you're really dumping me right now and decided the best way was through some hallmark channel 'you deserve to find your happiness' ass excuse, man up and tell me the real reason? Who is it?"

nick had tried to do it the right way, the nice way where her ego wouldn't get bruised but he was tired of the talking down to him, tired of letting her run all over him.

"Edwin" he said standing up from the bed "I'm leaving you for edwin"

"Edwin" she couldn't believe her ears "your best friend edwin? Oh this is rich, get the fuck out!" She screwed

Nick didn't need to be told twice, he was already planning on leaving, he wanted to surprise edwin in Toronto and hope that he would forgive him, he had already text Zion to let him know, much to his surprise Zion was fully on board, apparently his feelings for edwin were completely transparent.

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The plane ride to Toronto was filled with pep talks, worry and trying to put together the right words so edwin wouldn't slam the door in his face.

What do you even say to someone you basically fucked over, embarrassed and lied too? I'm sorry definitely was not going to cut it.

His phone vibrated with a text from Zion, he opened it to a pic of edwin in a yellow sweatsuit on a couch looking sad.