My Crush

NO TRIP

(My thoughts as I lay down while smoking a blunt)

Thinking about how I let someone waste 9 years of my life. How I will never give my whole heart to someone else if it's not totally mutual.
I'm really mad at my self cause I was single for two dam years and she got me back where she wanted me and we got back together for her to do the same thing again. I was a fool but the fool has awaken.

I didn't cry as I was thinking bout all the hurt I encountered over the years I was more angry at my self cause I allowed it.

I instantly got up got in the mirror and start telling my self
You are beautiful
You are a queen and a Goddess
You are awesome
You are talented
Your heart is beautiful
Your soul is strong
And you can get through anything that gets in your way .

I begin smiling at my self
admiring me and begin singing

Free by Perri Jones

Text notification comes through from Taye

Taye: we got to talk
Juicyy : wassup
Taye: I been thinking like I don't want you to think I'm ready to get in a relationship
Juicyy: ( I looked at the phone like is she serious 😂)
I'm not either yo
Taye: I'm saying cause me and my ex still stay together and shit and I just not ready for all that
Juicyy: so u basically got a girl taye why u didnt tell me bout this before we fucked bae like i still would have let u fuck TF
(We both started laughing )
Taye interrupted
Taye: I'm serious bae
Juicyy: shit I am too
Long as it ain't no drama we good
Taye: that's the thing
My ex tryna figure out who I been with for the last couple of days
Juicyy:🤦 ugh here we go. Well keep ya bihh in check. That's not my business .
Taye: she keep looking at my post and see who liking and reacting it to them . She been calling out random females' names
She seen that u always liking my post so she
Ask was it you
I said no to every name she named
Juicyy: tell your detective ass ex to Get the fuck on somewhere with that weird ass shit cause I don't have time for this forreal.
Taye: but anyway I just wanted u to know that. Wyd ?
Juicyy: sitting in the mirror texting u
Taye: u stay in that mirror
Juicyy: yes I do, so wyd?
Taye: nun getting ready for work
Juicyy: oh ok
Taye: u want to see me again
Juicyy : u know I do taye
Taye: I'ma try and come see u Saturday
Juicyy: (smiling big) ok baby
Taye: well let me go jump in the shower so I can get ready for work
Juicyy : ok have a good night at work babe
Taye: thank you ttyl

I got up from where my mirror was and got back in bed and turned on my Hulu so I can watch my stories (General hospital) while rolling another blunt.

(Thinking to myself)
I have a fucking feeling this bitch gone be a pain in my ass
Why I always falling for these damn Taurus ughhhhhhhhh
But I'ma fuck her til I can't no more fuck it I need to get my ex out my system she could be a Good distraction.