Your Love

My Sanity

Niya's POV

It's always refreshing to see Deshaun. I have to admit, I missed him like hell. I haven't seen him ever since my darkest days where he helped me through. He was my sanity at that poin.t It's good to have a guy like Deshaun in your life. Someone who's down to hang out whenever and someone who always knows the right things to say. He's nev- my thoughts were cut off by the ringing of my Iphone. I looked at the caller and smiled. "Hey Ashton." I greeted my boyfriend. "Hi babe. You haven't called me all day so I just called to talk for a bit." His voice spoke. My smile didn't fade a single bit. "Sorry, I would've called in the morning but I was out." "Where?" "I was at Deshaun's. He's going through a rough time and I need to be there for him." I fidgeted with my fingers hoping he would understand. "I see... well can I see you later today then?" I sighed heavily. "Shit.. I wish you had told me earlier. I already have things to do." "I haven't seen you in 2 weeks Miasia." I could hear the disappointment in his voice. "I've been in the studio and you know that. Tomorrow is all yours though, I promise. Can you come over?" "Okay baby. I love you." "I love you too... Sorry." I felt terrible that I had to ditch my boyfriend. This is probably the 4th time I had to call off the plans on him this week. With this song I'm working on with Chris Brown in the studio, I'm just on this tight schedule where I don't have enough time for anybody else... barely even myself!

Right after we hung up, I received another call. "What's good?" I said already knowing who called.

"Get ready cause we're going to Ce Promenade. I'm picking you up at 8." "Damn Deshaun... now I actually have to try to look good cause you wanna take me to some fancy restaurant?" "Exactly." I heard his chuckle on the other side of the line which made me smile. "I'll see you later D."

I had a full 2 hours on my hands before Deshaun planned on picking me up so I decided to spend this time to myself. It's like the first time I had time to just settle down in 2 weeks. I made myself a fruit salad and bought it into my living room. I placed it on my glass side table and started to burn some incense to make the mood uplifting. The smell of the incense immediately filled the room and made my mind float. I sat on my carpet and simply jotted down some thoughts that had been on my mind.

Simple thoughts could turn into mesmerizing lyrics. You just gotta set your mind free.

After about an hour of just mindless jots, I had about 3 pages full. I finally decided to set my pen down once my mind and heart was completely emptied of what they were dying to say. I went on my twitter and went through my news feed. Chris tweeted some teasers about our upcoming song. "@chrisbrown: Can't wait for y'all to listen to this track with my amazing new artist! Countdown begins!" It read. I smiled at the tweet. I scrolled down more and saw some pictures of Ashton and I that he tweeted. "I miss my lil shorty more than anything." I opened the picture and it was the one of him and I just laying on the couch. He held the camera as I slept on his chest. I just want to be with him now. I still feel bad that I had to flop on him but then again, I haven't seen Deshaun in months and I have to be there for him during this time like he was for me.

Me and D take it way back... about 6 years ago. When we were in grade 12, every girl loved him. They all wanted to be with him. Even having him know your name or simply acknowledge you would make a girl drool. Yeah, it was one of those crazy high school stories. Who wouldn't though? He was one of the older guys that got held back a semester. "The brownskin guy with the curly boxcut... oh and he has this sexy tattooed sleeve." One of the girls cheesed while they were describing him to me on my first day. Deshaun was one to keep himself lowkey though. He only talked to a certain group of people and he didn't pay attention to the girls who wanted him, just played it low and didn't bother. It was my first day at the school. I'll never forgot that day when I cussed his ass off. I didn't know any better so we got in this heated argument but I wouldn't change a thing about that day. It's what got us to where we are today and I'm so grateful to have him in my life.