The Poet Tries: Untold Love #Wattys2019

#10- Inexpensive Love

It was already 2o'clock in the morning when I look at my hands
Busy typing at the keyboard,
Words that has been stuck on mind.
It was then I realized,
Not all love is worth fighting for.
And not all who left were coward.
Coz, Baby, in the two of us,
I was the one who left,
Yet I was also the one who felt the sadness.

Arrived into the point where I don't know;
What ocean should be chose to drown myself.
In the deep longing of being with you again,
Or in a wide sense of wanting to forget everything that happened between us?

Arrived into the point where I don't know;
What route should I choose to go,
Or if there's really a place where I can go.
Coz, Baby, I don't wanna go to any place except in the corner of world we built where I can go home
-in the corner of spaces of your hugs and letting go,
Of your waiting smiles and avoiding ones,
Of joy and loneliness,
Of forever and goodbyes
-in the corner where I can always find you when m fatigue started to consume you in our hide and seek.
-in the corner where you choose to rest when in our hide and seek you lose your excitement.

Arrived into the point where I don't know,
Who's going to hide and seek
Coz when I decided hide you also hide
Instead of looking for me.

I even don't know if I'll runaway from you
Coz I feared that you'll not going to run after me.

And on the last hide and seek you gave me,
I found you inside a four-corner room where you locked yourself.
In the four corners built of letting go,
Of escape,
Of loneliness,
And of goodbye.

No more hugs.
No more waiting smiles.
No more joy.
No more forever.

Darlin', that's when I realized
You don't want to be found
I hope you said it earlier.

It was already 2o'clock in the morning when I look at my hands
Busy typing at the keyboard,
Words that has been stuck on mind,
I don't have any ring at all,
I don't have any love to call.

That's when I realized,
Not all love is worth fighting for.

//inexpensive love//