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I hate the rain

It's so wet

And cold

And damp.

I hate walking home

In the rain

With no umbrella.

I hate girls

Even though I am one

They flirt and hook up with random guys

Older guys

Younger guys.

I hate the rain

Especially when the girl i love stands a couple of feet away

I hate she has an umbrella

I hate she has a boyfriend 

I wish I was that special person.

I like the rain

I like walking towards her in the rain

I like towering over her

She cowers and i smirk

I kiss her soft candy lips

Savoring the taste.

I hate myself

I hate my scars

I hate my lust

I hate everything.

I love cars

I love the rain

Especially when it's raining

And a car is driving

I want to end it all

So i found myself walk in front of a car.

She watches from under the umbrella 

She doesn't stop me

I feel the impact

I feel the numbness taking over.

Goodbye love.

Goodbye mother.

Goodbye rain.

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Author nim ~

Thanks for reading. This is a girlxgirl one I thought about it because of a girl I liked in middle school. I hope you enjoyed and hope some can relate to this. I'm sorry if this is sad but I just think the rain is a good story starter.

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