🥀 Can 1 be happy? 🥀

Me

*Trigger warning*

(If you can not handle mention of rape or someone being molested  please skip I will try to make it appropriate but to get the message through I need to add some parts. It will be boyxboy too)

I'm 8

He's 16

I'm the new kid

He looked after me

I considered him a big brother

I thought he considered me a little brother

I played with him all the time

He played with me all the time

We played hide and seek

We played hop scotch

We played tag

I hate tag now

I hate myself too

I hid from him

He found me

He cornered me

He started at me with a look in his eye I couldn't get over

I just looked at him

His hand grazed my cheek

I flinched and shuffled back towards the container

My back hit the cold metal and I started at my lap

He touches my cheek again

I watch what he does

I know this isn't right

I don't scream I dont say anything

I try to push him  away as he comes closer

He touches me in places that I didn't want touched

He kissed me roughly

I wanted to cry but I didn't

I knew this was wrong I couldn't do anything

He hurt me 

He did so much to me

I couldn't hold it

I started crying

He finishes and kisses me again he strokes my cheeks

He kisses my neck and then leaves 

I felt used

Upset

Dirty

Unwanted 

I felt numb

I felt... Dead.

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Author nim ~

I needed to tell this for anyone who reads this. People who have gone through this are scared of losing someone they love.

They can't trust people they regret trusting people. They are tricked into it. They need support and help.

It was hard for me to write this but I did for you guys.

Thank you for reading if you did

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