rommies or more? 18+

chapter 10

Alexis's POV
I went to collins grave i had to i need to talk to him

"Hey collin it's me i brought you a red rose your favorite" i say smiling i sigh as i cry "why did you leave me? I need you so much right now" i say crying

"Alexis?" Collin asks

"Collin! You're dead" i say

"I know I'm here in spirit and i know what's going on but devin needs you his life isn't glamorous nor a walk in the park" he says

I cry "niether is mine he lied to me about drugs which you died from i stay awake at night blaming myself because i couldn't help you!" I scream

He looks down "babe it wasn't your fault it was mine okay? Please don't beat yourself up because of my mistake" he says

"I love devin BUT I CAN'T GO THROUGH IT AGAIN COLLIN! I REFUSE TO LOSE SOMEONE ELSE I LOVE I CAN'T DO IT" i scream through the tears

He looks down "i know I'm sorry i won't push you just go see him in jail and tell him how you feel"

I sigh "alright" i say getting up

"I gotta go now i love you angel" collin says leaving

I cry "i love you too brother"

《At the jailhouse》

"10 mins" a gaurd says

I sigh and pick up the phone "hi" simply say

"Hey" he says unsure

"I went to collin's grave and he told me to come see you and tell you how i feel" i say sighing

He nods "okay"

"I love you so much but i don't wanna go through it again if i do it will destroy me i won't be anything devin please understand when you get out you have 1 last chance if you let me down again I'm sorry" i say crying

He looks down and puts his hand on the glass "i promise when i get out of here I'll pay him and I'll be done will you wait for me?" He asks

I nod through the tears "I'll wait for you" i say putting a hand on the glass with his we put the phones down and kiss through the glass

"I love you" he says

I nod "love you too" i say blowing him a kiss

"Come on punk" a guard says

I sigh and exit the jailhouse i drive and listen to music i turn on theory of a deadman "i hate my life" i scream the words and slam my hands on the wheel  i stop the car so i don't crash and scream at the top of my lungs "I HATE MY LIFE!" i scream

I soon get myself together and drive back to the campus i change into my pjs climb in bed and do a vlog i fake a smile but i know my subscribers can see right through me after it's posted i get a few messages like "alexis? I'm here for you we know something is wrong" "where was devin?" "Are you okay?" "We love you"

I shut my laptop and cry "why does life have to be so complicated? I just wanna live a happy college life why can't i?" I ask myself

¤phone rings¤

Incoming call "mom"

I sigh and answer "hello?" I ask

"Hey honey we just heard how are you?" She asks

"I'm a wreck mom you know what happened with collin and yet he does this?" I ask

"I know honey but people make mistakes" she says

I sigh "I'm giving him one last shot when he gets out of jail and he messes it up I'm gone i can't go through it again mom my heart is still healing from collin" i say crying

"I know honey I'm here for you i love you" she says smiling [translation please don't do anything stupid]

I smile "i love you too mom and i won't do anything stupid" i say smiling

I hear her smile "you know me so well" she says smiling

I nod "yep well I'm going to sleep i love you" i say smiling

I hear smile "i love you too honey goodnight" she says hanging up

A/N: see you in the next chapter!