Last night I locked my self down in my bathroom
Bcoz I felt numb
I had seviour migraines last Dawn
I couldn't bear that
I felt as if I was dying
I felt like my mind will just get busted right now
I needed someone at that time
But no one was around
I searched for people ,
But no one appeared
But this shit happens to me every damn time
Whenever I need help I find no people around me !
Ahh !!!!These feelings are hard to ignore ‽
I layed in Black water full of flowers thinking maybe the scent of the flowers could help me , as I couldn't think of anything at that moment, but even that couldn't help me .
Only I knew that I was surviving on drugs that held me ,
Last night I thought I'd rather die then to take those drugs that'd probably soon kill me !
I ate those pills with something written over it and sometimes that'd only satisfy me , but sometimes I just thought maybe that could kill me somehow .
Ohh ! I don't know what to do ,
My mind is unstable ,
I'm all weak and can't think of a damn shit for doing something .
