Falling For You

Chapter 9

I didn't know where I was going. I just knew I was driving and I wasn't going to stop. Fuck school and everybody in that bitch. I listened to the beautiful Jhene Aiko playing on my radio. I was still crying. A lot. I began to get a headache but I had so much to cry about. im tired of depending on people to make me happy. Like I depended on Lialle. I loved that girl, and sometimes it's like she takes advantage of me. She treats me like shit. Her ex doesn't have shit on me and she knows it, yet she keeps fucking with her. How stupid could she be? And why.

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I hadn't brought any clothes with me and the mall was still open so I decided to get me a pair of true religion jeans, a shirt, and the sport blue 6's. Better late than never. Got some joe boxers and bras. (What girl hasn't or doesn't wear boxers?) I could just go sleepover at my cousins house for the night. we didn't get a long all the time but she was like an older man sister. I pulled up to her driveway and just sat in my car. My phone was off on purpose, my heart was heavy. And my head hurt. I'm sick of all this. I just wish I didn't fall for people or gain feelings so easy. I need to act like a fucking G. Act like I don't give a fuck, a "playa-playa". I know this was the mindset I had tonight but tomorrow id be back to the old sensitive ass me. The one who cared too much. I finally gave myself the strength to get out of the car and I rang the doorbell.

"Who is it?"

"It's Na'riyah, I'm coming to spend the night."

She opened the door and let me in.

"Jordan is in the bath tub, he'd be happy to see you , you should go give him a bath" she said laughing.

"Na'riyah what's wrong?"

"I'm just tired." I was being honest at least. I say my stuff in Jordans room, Jordan loved me. More than any cousin in the world. I was lie his big sister. He was the only child and he was spoiled rotten but so sweet and caring. I knew he'd ask me to put him to sleep so I prepared myself ahead of time. I went into the bathroom and saw him shooting hoops. He was going far. "I see you little man, but you still can't beat me!" he started screaming in excitement. I died of laughter. "Ri!!!!" He said holding his arms for me to pick him up. "No we have to wash you first J and then I'll pick you up." he rushed me to wash him. I could tell he missed me.

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"Ri your eyes red. I know because you cried."

This was one smart little boy.

"Yes J, I cried for a very long time"

he hugged me and gave me a kiss on my forehead.

"It's okay, I did what you do when I'm crying. It's work. It works for me"

"Thank you J😊"

Indeed it did work. This boy was the reason I wanted to have kids. He brought so much happiness. I turned my phone just to take pictures with him and turned it back off. we stayed up till 9 watching Toy Story and Doc Mcstuffins. I read him a book and he was knocked out in the middle of it. I'm glad I had gotten into my pajamas because he wasn't going to let me go. oh wait!!

"J wake up for one minute so we can do our prayers"

We folded our hands and said our prayers .

"Amen" we said together and went to sleep.

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I had missed first period and got to school in time for second. I got dressed and dressed J and took him to daycare and told him that I'd pick him up and he could come spend the night with me. He was so happy. I parked in my same spot that I parked in every single day and went into the building. "Give me the patience I need today." Second period went by pretty quick. I didn't say a word to anybody. Only one more period and I could leave. Lialle wasn't in third period. No telling where the bastard was. As soon as the bell rang I started heading for the door. When I got to my door Lialle was in the car waiting for me....

"Lialle please get the fuck outta my car."

"Nai I'm not leaving till you talk to me. Where were you last night. I called and I texted you and I know you got them!!!"

"Maybe I did, maybe I didn't but I have somewhere to be so please get out of my car."

"Nai please don't do this. I told you I wasn't at her fucking house and you know I didn't fucking lie to you...." She started crying. "Nai I'm not going to lie to you. you know I wouldn't. I was at home the whole time,"

"Lialle fuck off with that bullshit. If you were at home the whole time why the fuck didn't you answer none of my calls or texts. I'm not going to argue with you. Im tired of this shit PLEASE GET OUT OF MY CAR."

By this time people could hear me and I didn't give a fuxk. I was beyond upset.

"I. Was. Sleep. What the fuck are so upset about. You act like we're a fucking couple and I cheated on you! why are you being so damn childish?!"

I sighed. "Lialle your right. We don't go together, I'm sorry for caring about someone I deeply care about, and I'll know not to do it again. Your single and you can do whatever it is that pleases you, but I refuse to let you ruin the rest of my day. If you were at home then that's cool. But like I said I have somewhere to be and I need you to get out of my car..."

She didn't move. She just sat there.. We just sat there. I had nothing left to say, and my voice was hoarse. But before I knew it Lialle kissed me. A long passionate kiss. One that blew my mind, and by body. One that just left me there.

"Na'riyah. I'm sorry, and you know I am but I love you. I wouldn't be anything if you were not with me every step. I love you sooo much." She reached over and took my phone out of my pocket and turned it on. She entered my password and sent a text to herself saying "I love you too." She was corny.

"I still have somewhere to be."

She got out of my car and walked to hers. I made sure she made it in safely and went to get J from daycare.

After I got J from daycare we went to get his stuff from his house. I packed him extra because I'd probably want him to stay longer. We grabbed something from sonic and went home. for an hour or two we just sat downstairs and watched tv. I hadn't heard from Lialle or anybody. I wonder what Christen was doing. J wanted to take a nap so I carried him upstairs in my brothers room and turned the tv on so he could nap. I went in my room and was shocked as hell. Lialle was sleep. She had been there this whole time and I didn't see or hear her. i got into some sweatpants and a Nike shirt and laid across my bed. "I didn't think you would ever be here. It's about time"

" I went to get J. He's staying with me"

"Awwwwwwe YAYYY J's here!!!!"

it seemed like she loved J more than I did.

"I'm going to take a nap" I said yawning.

Lialle laid on my chest and started watching Netflix. I was sleepy and I was falling asleep. "I love you Nai" "love you t..oo" sleep took over 😴😴