It's Not What It Seems

Chapter 9

Aiden

For the past month, Trinity has changed a little. She's going to the doctor more, she's been eating more, and we don't ever have sex. She gives me head and I'll give her head but she never lets it go further than that. I don't force anything so I respect if she doesn't want to. I just would like to know why.

We still go out for lunch every day unless I get stuck in a meeting or the other way around. I would say she's pregnant but she would tell me wouldn't she? Either way, maybe it's something else.

I'd ask her about it but knowing her she wouldn't tell me. She's just like that. She likes to handle everything on her own and that's the only thing I dislike about her. She never wants anyone to help her out. She'll help out anybody and they mamas but won't allow anyone to ever help her out. I get that she grew up never asking for anything but there are people out there that are willing to help her out. She doesn't even speak on something when it's bothering her. She just pushes it to the side until she's forced to speak on it.

With me, I think she's getting more and more comfortable because she doesn't hold her tongue as much as she does with anyone else. I just hope she doesn't pull back because of what happened in her past relationship.

Zion

Trinity was supposed to be at the house 30 minutes ago. Apparently, she's supposed to be going back to the doctor to find out her due date soon. I don't know how long soon is but I know it's close because for Tiana we had doctors appointments like every month. I think she already went for this month. She didn't alert me but she told me once I asked about it.

I kind of want to throw a gender reveal party but I'll have to go over that idea with Trinity. I don't think she wants one though because she hasn't brought it up at all. She actually didn't bring up anything dealing with the baby. I don't even think she wants me to go to any doctor appointments with her. I don't even think she's told her parents yet. I've alerted mine.

My parents always loved Trinity so of course, they were so happy to hear about the baby. They actually want to come down and stay with us after the baby is born but I told them we have to wait until that time comes. My mom calls me every week asking about the baby and Trinity seeing if they're okay and they're doing alright. Never asking about my health or wellbeing and she's my mother.

I think Trinity is going to tell her parents using a bear or something that talks. She's always talked about doing that once she's pregnant. She would give it to her sister and have her sister record her parents when they open the gift. She saw videos and instantly wanted to do that.

I'm so anxious to start baby shopping. I really want this one to be a boy this time because I've always wanted a son. Trinity wanted to have a boy first anyway. I want to decorate their room, pick their name, and so much more but I got ways to go.

Finally snapping out of my thoughts Tiana texted me. She wanted me to go to the store again. That's the only thing she ever wants me to do. She wants me to go when she's out of her favorite candy or when she doesn't feel like going. Ever since she lost Trinity it's like she blamed me for it even though she was the one to tell her in the middle of our wedding.

We were going to tell her but I didn't know she was going to tell her during the wedding. That's her own fault. Either way it goes, they wouldn't have still been friends because Trinity doesn't play like that. Tiana was the one to come on to me which is even worse on her part.

Y'all are going to say it's both of our faults and I know it is but I'm just saying she's blaming me as if she didn't start the affair.

Trinity

I know Zion is waiting on me but I hope he gets comfortable because I'm not going over there today. I'm tired and I want to be alone. He's been so protective over me ever since I told him about the baby. Doesn't he get that I want to do everything on my own? He needs to go over his little girlfriend's house and stop worrying about me. I'm sorry maybe I would like it if I actually liked him but I don't so it's annoying.

I'm already stressed enough I don't need someone breathing down my neck. I have to think of when I'm going to tell my parents because I know as soon as they get the message they would want to come over. And at the moment, I don't even have a place for them to stay. I'm still looking for the perfect apartment. I've narrowed it down to about 3 places. They're all close enough to my job and food places just in case I need to go out and buy food which is great.

The first apartment which is 5 minutes from my job, has 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. The second one which is 10 minutes away, has 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. The last one which is 7 minutes away, has 2 bedrooms and one and a half bathrooms. I'm really considering the second one only because it has more bedrooms. They all have kitchens with all the appliances I need of course so that doesn't help me out any. I'll make my decision soon so I can have my place ready by the time my parents want to come down.

I think I'll tell them halfway through my pregnancy or maybe when I get my place ready. So many decisions and everyone knows I'm indecisive. I'll have to get better though. For the baby because I have to make decisions for him until he's old enough to make them himself. As you can tell by now, yes I want a baby boy. I want their name to start with a J. Why? I don't know I just always liked J names even if mine starts with a T.

I want a name that's kind of in the middle. Something that'll fit him or her. That's another decision I have to make, their name.

That's enough thinking for one night, I'm going to bed.