It's Not What It Seems

Chapter 10

Trinity

I'm currently 37 weeks, which is basically 8 and a half months, pregnant. Yes, the baby is almost here and I'm so excited. I decided to go with apartment option number 2 with the 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. I plan on telling my parents next week. I took two vacation days to make this trip. I didn't tell my sister either so she'll be in for a surprise as well.

I haven't told Aiden about the baby and I've come to the conclusion I'll tell him when my water breaks. Crazy, but I just don't know how to tell him. Maybe I'll tell him the week before.

Oh and Zion, don't even get me started. He's gone out and bought a load of baby stuff and I am thankful but I kind of wanted to go looking as well. He bought a stroller and a crib. Just about everything I needed. I already started setting up the nursery in the third bedroom. Since I decided to not know the gender, when I went out I got colors of both. Making it neutral since it is a 50-50 chance.

I've been more focused on the baby and work because I'll be out of work for a little while and I needed to make all the money I could while I was still able to. I was going to take the work I was going to miss with me even though I should be enjoying my stay with my parents and sister.

Zion begged to come with me and as the always is, I said no. I let Aiden know because there was no reason to try and sneak off when he's head and would end up knowing anyway. That wouldn't be smart.

I've really started to like Aiden, but he's married for one and then two I have a bigger issue to worry about than my own love life and feelings. I can't be selfish for a long time but I'll have time to deal with those feelings in about 2 months.

I've had to wear bigger clothes. Most of the new clothes I bought were oversized so you couldn't see my baby bump because it's clear I'm pregnant if I wear anything my size. I'm a pretty small girl. You know dealing with my height and all. I'm not very, very skinny or anything like that but compared to some of my coworkers, especially the guys, I'm small.

Aiden

In the past like 7 or 8 months, Trinity has really pulled away from me. She started dressing differently like her shirts would be much bigger than they needed to be and she stopped wanting to go out to lunch with me. And when she did, she would wear this big hoodie. We had less physical contact. She would give me side hugs instead of a full hug. I'm starting to think she doesn't like me anymore and that really hurts because, within this short period of time we've shared together, I've really started to fall for her.

Is it too fast to be falling for someone? Should I slow down?

It's like I feel like she doesn't like me but then she'll kiss me passionately and want to hang out with me for hours laughing and joking so that thought gets pushed back for those days. She's really giving me mixed signals and I don't know what to do at this point. I'm just going to wait and maybe I'll know why after this passes over if this ever passes over.

It's not like she's changed personality-wise. She's still that goofy, fun, loving girl. She's just been more secretive than normal. If I ask about it I'd feel wrong like I'm pushing her where she's not comfortable. Do you get it or is it still confusing? Okay good.

I really really like her and not knowing if she likes me back really messed with my head. She is leaving for 2 days to go see her parents. She said she had something to tell them, but never told me what it was. Now that I think about it, I kind of want to know myself.

Trinity

I've started packing my suitcase since I leave in two days. When I get down there that morning I'm probably going to be sleepy so I'll tell them about the baby when I wake up. I decided to not do the bear thing with them. I decided to play a game.

Have y'all heard of the whisper challenge? Oh good because that's the game we'll be playing. All three of them are going to have on headphones while I tell them I'm pregnant. I think they'll be happy and mad at me at the same time. Happy because I am pregnant but mad because I waited so long to tell them. I would say maybe they won't think about that but they will. No doubt about that.

I have an early flight because that's just how my dad taught me. It's better to go early so you have time for any delays and etc. It's actually pretty smart as well.

I've been so focused on me that I've pushed Aiden away and I feel so bad but he's just going to have to hold out a little longer. I just need a couple more months. The baby is supposed to be due November 1st.

I got a Scorpio baby. It's not as good as a Gemini but it's fine I'll take it. Did I forget to mention I love learning facts about zodiac signs? I did? I'm sorry but yes I am a Gemini baby. Some people don't believe in these things saying that they don't define who you are or how you act but I believe in them and I love them. I really find them interesting. I'll binge watch youtube videos about my sign specifically.

I'm a Gemini, Aiden's an Aquarius, and our baby's going to be a Scorpio. We're all over the place but it's fine. That's just so many different attitudes to deal with. I'm hoping the baby has Aiden's attitude and patience because my attitude is bad and patience isn't the longest. Well, I guess it depends on what I'm being patient about.

Then I hope the baby looks like me so it can have something of me because I can't have a set of twins in my house. I want to be involved.

Finishing packing and getting into bed, I text back Zion and text Aiden goodnight. I'm a baby that's about to have a baby. Let's see how that goes, shall we?