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Naiya

I smiled at her, at least we were both pregnant and I wouldn't feel alone in this. "Jordyn" She just started crying, I hugged her and she just started crying badly.

After she calmed down, she looked at me breathing heavy. The doctor left us long ago for privacy. "I'm sorry for being too selfish-"

"you're not." I told her.

"I'm crying over me being pregnant and you're having high risk pregnancy. I should think about your feelings how you feel and all of this." She wiped her tears.

"I'm going to be okay." I tried convincing her.

"you don't have to be strong all the time." She said.

I nodded. "I'm really going to be okay."
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We went back to my house, she dropped me off and went to hers. It was still empty so I knew Bash and Zoe weren't here. I went to my bedroom and just started crying and crying.

I didn't want to be pregnant for Bash again, not after the billion times he hurt me. I brushed my stomach trying to calm down because I didn't need this stress. As much as I hate Bash I know a child is a blessing and I can't lose a baby, I love Zoe and even though having a baby in my life now would complicate things because of work, motherhood and everything but I know I can pull through and do this.

I felt tired and I slept. I was woken up by loud noises. I sighed getting up to brush my teeth and face. Downstairs, they were bonding playing a game that Bash just brought for her.

He saw me and the worried look on his face was evident. He followed me to the kitchen I wasn't even in the mood to look or see him. I drank some juice while thinking what can I eat because I know now I have to eat. Not only for my health but my baby too.

I looked at my stomach, I wasn't even showing yet and I already know it's a high risk pregnancy. If only i knew earlier on, I wouldn't have drank alcohol or smoked weed. I put my baby in danger, I really feel bad about that part. "can we talk?" I continued making my sandwich, he came closer and sat down on the chair next to where I was standing. "Sanaiya" he said sounding irritated.

"I listen with my ears not eyes." I said with an attitude.

"I know I was wrong for doing something like that to that idiot but you know how selfish I am when it comes to you." He said as if that's cute. I glared at him, does he think that'll make anything better? It's okay for me to share him but he can't share me? We are not even a couple and he's doing stupid things now I'm even pregnant AGAIN with his child and we're not in a relationship!

I deserve my happily ever after. With or without him. "it was one stupid kiss! You say all this bullshit but it's okay for me to share you?"

"Sanaiya-"

"do you know much stress the shit you do causes me!? I have to do Nate's and my job at work! I can't even get a moment to myself or my daughter because I'm busy doing everything. I have to think about you fucking other bitches while you claim I'm yours but clearly you're not ready to be mine! Now I'm having a high risk pregnancy at only 6 weeks because you just can't man up and let me go instead of playing me!" I shouted it all out.  Right now I was crying because I was scared, what if i lose this pregnancy because of him? I'll never forgive him if I do.

If there's one thing I'm very proud of in my life that's being a mother, I may hate the baby father God gives me but I'll take the blessing either way with its baggage. "you're pregnant?"  He stood up looking at me puzzled. I nodded wiping my tears only for them to fall further. He hugged me and I just cried worse. "you know I'm always going to be here for you. This will go well just like the last time, Zoe turned out good."